Somewhere for Me

It hurts
inside and out
I want this pain to go away
but nothing happens

Inside it burns
like the fires of forever
outside it stings
like a bee-sting that lingers

I don't want to feel this way
I want this pain to go away
but nothing happens

I need a vacation
away from the world
away from the hell-hole I
call life
the house I am supposed to call home

There is nowhere for me
I belong nowhere
On the lightside I am dark
On the darkside I am light
I can not choose this life
It hurts too much to listen

I want to cry
but the tears won't come out
they are stuck inside
where nothing comes out
No anger
No fear
No hate
No rage
Nothing comes out
I can not speak
I scream inside
Loud and clear

My throat is sore
but no one hears

I am lost
Nowhere to go
Is there a place
for me to go,
that is not light
and is not dark
and where I
am not alone

Is there a place,
somewhere for me?