[ I'm so bored ]

I'm so bored
I finished the test
Theres nothing I can do
I want to sleep
But then she'll scream
And I'll get killed again
I want to talk
But that would cause
injuries outside and in
I want to scream
and show my scars
but they are trapped inside
they won't come out
until the cloak
of night begins to fall
and when it falls
we will die
inside
again and again
to feel the cool breeze over me
Is all I want for now
To live free
and happy
That's what life is all about
My life is so far
from ordinary
I can hardly believe
I cry within
and bleed and break
but no one sees my skin
I go to school and hide behind
faces of the past and my billowing sweatshirt
when happiness reigned
before I fell
into this dark deep spell
It lingers here
cold and afraid
of what will happen next
will I die
will I cry
It's hard to say for sure
I can't control
What happens to me
Because
I
Don't
Know
How!!!!