I Hurt

I hurt.........when all I have to look forward to is being in the dark
I hurt.........Because my own father doesn't love me
I hurt.........when I'm trapped into my own mind
I hurt.........when my meds don't work
I hurt.........when I pick up a safety pin
I hurt.........when I can't find the right lines
I hurt.........Every time I smoke something
I hurt.........when I was an alcoholic
I hurt.........when I'm made to believe that I'm always sick
I hurt.........when I find out all the family secrets
I hurt.........when my loved one's turn out to be different from what I expect them to be
I hurt.........when all I have is my life
I hurt.........when a plan of suicide is my daily ritual
I hurt.........because I'm never good enough
I hurt.........when I won't let people love me
I hurt.........when I can't let the nameless guy love me
I hurt.........whenever someone touches me
I hurt.........when I say "I LOVE YOU" do I really mean it??
I hurt.........Because I have no one to confide in
I hurt.........because I'm alone
I hurt.........when I see what I turned into
I hurt.........when all I have is the dark
I hurt.........when I tried to kill myself
I hurt.........when I think people are always watching and staring at me
I hurt.........when I feel like someone is over my shoulder
I hurt.........when everything I once loved brings no joy
I hurt.........when I can't ever cry
I hurt.........when people see my vulnerable
I hurt.........when I set my standards too high for my self
I hurt.........when I can't live up to what I want to be
I hurt.........when I won't follow my dreams because of four years of hell
I hurt.........when I hate going to high school
I hurt.........when I look back on this it will shitty
I hurt.........when I put personal poems on here and have people judge them
I hurt.........when people judge me when they don't know me
I hurt.........when no one understands
I hurt.........when people pretend that they do
I hurt.........because my heart is an ice box
I hurt.........when this poem is done