Thoughts

Bout to turn 20 & you think you seen it all
Ups & Downs in life for the long haul
Choices every day, dictate the next
Liven in the moment, not always thinkin of whats best
The hurt & the pain exposes itself to your heart & brain
Watching friends come & go, watching girlfriends walk out the front door
But soon you are aware of the outcome of the choices that you make
You find a higher power, do your best to change roads
Try to make choices that hold the outcome you hope for
But little do you know even though you're 20 years old
Life is still a very long road
You change your ways, try to change your life
You put yourself out there, to be a good man
But people still step on you like you're just a bug in the sand
You can't figure why you try to do right
When in all reality people could care less about your life
You take the time for yourself and your love
But really in the other persons mind, you're just a Long Lost Thug
Its not just that special person, also the others that you love
No one cares enough for a Long Lost Thug
Its a burden for them to write a letter
Its a burden for them to help you feel treasured
It eats you up inside, it tears your soul up so you no longer want to survive
Eventually as time runs, the hurt turns to resentment & anger for those
who live on the outside
You no longer care, even though it still hurts inside
That hurt turns to anger & you wanna hurt them the worst
But then the next day comes, & you still hope that someone will make you feel loved
But in the long run, you're just setting yourself up for disappointment & now
you're no longer able to love
But you constantly tell yourself "Tomorrows a new day" "Maybe you'll get a letter that
will make you feel loved"
But reality sets in when mail passes by
And the person you put your all in doesn't care enough to give her all in return
But at the end of the day there's no longer the motivation to keep on going
All you wanna do is hang yourself with a rope until your soal starts floatin
Just floatin for eternity, your soul like a lost dove
For thats how you felt in life, when no one care enough to help you feel loved!