completion in myself (ramblings pure and raw)

a breath, a moment to think
a sigh, a  break in the day
can't blink, can't concentrate
smoke swarms, we pay no mind
thought we had it together?
guess not with these tears on the floor
You shoved me, and i kicked you
you bit my heel and I stomped your head into the sand
never thought we'd make it this far?
yeah neither did I!
Step back and shut up
all the things you thought you were
now I'm tired of your complaining
sick of your stalking

Why can't I make these things stop
Why does every worldly good thing
make so much more sence then what I see
every good poem, and every good song
all from the depths of evil and I can't sing
joy looses what I am
and these thoughts come forth
someone please make me real
I need you, I need you
but deeper, I find the well
I need  you to fill
what I am inside, break who I am
and dance in the rain
so our tears of joy can't be seen