Please father forgive me for I have not sinned against you
Yes I was only a child but still I feel as though I need to ask for forgiveness
So here I kneel asking you to forgive me for what happened
I’ve turned away from you for a long time
I’ve lived with my dirty little secret for years
The secret lay deep in me eating away at me little by little
So please forgive, for I did not sin against you
My friends tell me that it’s not my fault
I have not forgiven myself or the man I had trusted
I had buried this event in my life till now
This event plays in my mind during sleep at night
I wish I could go back and stop this from ever happening
I know I may not have been able to stop him
But I want to be forgiven for the things that happened
I trusted someone who was a part of my family
I kneel and bow my head to pray for forgiveness
God I turned away and pulled farther away from you
But I only did this because I thought it was my fault
I thought you would never love me again
I hate myself for my sin or so I thought it was a sin
So I stand before you asking for forgiveness
I now realize I did not sin
Even though it has eaten away at me for many years
So I bend down on my knees asking for forgiveness
Author notes
silent30gurl, abuse
A contest entry
- Revisit Your Past... by Miss Faerie.
525 points, ended April 4, 2007, 24 entries
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This is so devastating, Its so sad how some poeple lock things like that up and don't tell.
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very well done thanks for this excellent entry and i encourage you in your later work my favourite lines were:
So I stand before you asking for forgiveness
I now realize I did not sin
Even though it has eaten away at me for many years
So I bend down on my knees asking for forgiveness -
i wish i could do this, and just ask for the pain to go away.
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all of us can be forgiven from our sins and our thoughts if we ask for it from our hearts , nothing is unforgivable we can be forgiven as long as we are heartfelt in it but the lord will know if we mean it or not , nearly everyday we need t obe forgiven for something we have done , no one is perfect and all are not worthy but realizing that you need t obe forgiven you already have been by the grace of god
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Thank you for entering
This poem is heartbreaking. It tells me the story of someone who was clearly abused, by someone that she trusted. If your father truly does blame you, and doesn't believe that you were taken advantage of, then there is something wrong with him. He has no right to blame you for what happened. Don't ever let anyone tell you otherwise
The repetition was effective and the imagery very well done
Thanks and good luck
Faerie
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I applaud your courage.
It took guts to share something so personal. I hope that you are someday (soon) able to get the closure you need.
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lovely
this was very well written and made me tear-up in class! thankfully i didnt start crying like a little baby or something, lol!
great write!
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WOW, this is heartbreaken and very emotional, brought tears to my eyes. What ever happened it't not your fault, when you trust someone and they betray that trust it's them that has to live with the guilt now you. Well written poem dear poet good luck in the contest
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great write... youre amazing!
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