Naked photographs
You swear you have destroyed
Forever haunt my memory
With a life I left behind
Twelve years I endured
Being your secret nightly entertainment
Those old hands probed
Parts of my body I didn’t understand
I was only six years young
When you trained me to be
Your naked ballerina
On turning eighteen your perversion grew deeper
Your fingers penetrating me no longer satisfied
And for two years more I suffered
Intercourse merely for your pleasure
Always under your constant scrutiny
Not knowing quite when or if
I should Jump, Turn or Speak
I felt like a possession
Rather than a friend
Curfews imposed on me,
You even checked my underwear
For a trace scent of rubber
Just to preserve me for yourself
And your lame excuse
About protection being unnecessary
Was operations made you infertile
Denied the freedom to date
Your jealousy regarding others
Made me a prisoner to your perverse desires
I was just a puppet
Who had to dance naked to your tune
Finally an opportunity came
To escape the torment
Imposed by your septuagenarian hands
And in truly trustworthy arms I now reside
Yet every now and then
When lights grow dim
And creaks fill the hallways
My eyes well up with tears
And my heart becomes laden
With anger and fear
Author notes
(option 3)
this is about what happened to me between the age of 6yrs and 20yrs old, I am now 25yrs old
- Gay Lesbian and Bisexuals Group group list • next in list
A contest entry
- For All Rape Survivors by ElisaRose.
600 points, ended March 17, 2007, 9 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - SuIcIdE & rApE by XCrUeL iNtEnTiOnSX.
800 points, ended April 13, 2007, 53 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - Options. Options. Options ( CLOSED) by forever dreaming.
450 points, ended April 4, 2007, 23 entries
Bronze trophy winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - ~It Doesn't Get Any Easier Than This~ by -Ink Artist-.
525 points, ended April 13, 2007, 56 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
Please tell me what you think
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Quite raw, quite excellent. The only real suggestion I have is maybe use a little more interesting vocabulary in places (just dot in it, don't pour it all over the place). Septuagenarian was a nice touch, though.
An excellent piece, all said and done.
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this reminds me of some really hard things i dealt with in my life, but the operative word is dealt, you can get through this, you have expressed yourself so well here and im so glad that you have such a positive outlet from the raw emotion portrayed throughout this poem, u said so many things that i identify with, i almost feel as though u were there with me when i went through some of the really bad things, thanks for sharing this, it makes me feel much less alone in a world where things like this are brushed away, forced under the carpet into submission, i hope u are doing ok, feel free to tlak to me anytime
Bec -
Such a powerful piece so full of raw human emotion.
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Those photographs... I know more about that sort of experience than I would like. For myself and for anyone else."Yet every now and then
When lights grow dim
And creaks fill the hallways
My eyes well up with tears
And my heart becomes laden
With anger and fear"
I still have that fear, especially when I hear footsteps outside my bedroom door (very often). It's like a dear in the headlights reaction. Except I'd rather be facing a speeding car.
A good write on a fucked up past. I hope no perverted bastards ever come near you again.
Bandaid. -
*dizzy*
*runs to hug you* how? simply how could you endure such painful torture? this poem puts out so much fear and pain...ummm...great write...
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So sad
Painful to read, I couldn't even imagine going through it. You are a very brave person to be able to write about something so tramatic that happened to you. Thank you for allowing others to read this. Simply amazing. I wish you the best in everything that you do and I hope that you remain strong throughout you life.
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oh, shit...
this is a very good poem, but it hurts to read it...
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very well written
although this is a sad and tormenting piece i liked reading it. it is the kind of piece that opens your eyes and makes you more visible to the world around, i like it very much, well done
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Tragically heart wrenching piece. Your emotions overflow onto the page and fill the reader's mind with anger and frustration for your loss of innocence. I hope that you've found some peace and solace inside yourself to deal with the nightmares that must live in your heart. Truly compelling piece. Thanks for your entry!
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i am so sorry that this was done to you. i feel odd in saying congratulations on the bronze trophy you have won as it is borne out of such terror. viyanna rosemarie
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Oh god, I don't really know what to say about this. On one hand it makes me want to be physically sick, on the other I want to say it is a fantastic piece that is overflowing with emotion. It is somethnig I can not relate to and therefore can not say I know where you are coming from but you have shown such courage in writing this piece. You have given me a lot of information in this piece that has left me feeling totally horrified but I feel that this piece really does deserve a place in my finalists list as it should serve to show what victims such as yourself have had to endure. I wish you every success for the future and really hope you have a life that you so greatly deserve filled with love and happiness. Well done and I thank you deeply for sharing this with me and the other readers.
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Wow ... I have been a victim of rape many times; so I can relate & understand the pain other people have gone through.
What you have endured is so horrible, but I want to say you are so very strong and courageous posting this write ... Not alot of people are very open about the abuse they have endured during their lives & all with good reason; but it is always admiring to see someone who has done it.
Stay safe
~Amanda
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How awful..I couldn't even imagine going through all of that. But it's very inspiring to see that you can move on from it and write such a strong and emotional poem. That is truly amazing.
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Good Write
Thanks for entering my contest, is this a true story, good luck... -
My dear poet, your journey will be long, the path at times such a strugle, there will be mountains that seem impassable, but the strength you have displayed in this piece and the love and support of you friends will help you climb all the obsticles that lay ahead...and trust me when I say, that one day you will wake up and the sunshine will warm you, this will be the first day of the rest of your life, and sunset won't find you angry or afraid.
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I have never been through the things you have but my heart and soul go out to you. I admire you for carrying on every day.
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Amazing
I KNOW how you feel.
Between the years of 4 and 14 I was raped, abused, beaten, molested.
This captures the emotions I felt, the emotions you felt.
It captures them so well it made me want to scream.
Sorry I can't applause, I've run out.
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Very moving and very sad. I pray you have forgiven your perpetrator and come to terms with your awful ordeal.
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So devastating but the way you wrote about it was powerful. I am so glad that you are away from that man and that you are safe now. Throughout the whole poem I could feel your strength and courage breaking through every word.
A truly haunting but wonderfully written poem, keep that strength about you, its infectious,
Elisa
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