"I've F**ked Up My Entire Life" (Pay The Price)

I thought today would be alright,
But today is just a mess,
I can't get past my screwing up,
Sometimes I think life is just a test.

I can't believe today is the day,
That I may slay me where I lay.

I'm broken down;
It's been three whole months,

I haven't cried a tear.

I've tried to kill myself off every year.

"FUCK FEAR!"

I wanted to scream it in your ear,
"I'VE FUCKED UP MY ENTIRE LIFE MY DEAR!"
What is there left to fear?
I'll be gone from everyone's memory,
I'm sure, within a year.

Hate me now,
But dare I say,
I never gave a fuck what you thought of me anyway,

When they buried me on that rainy day,
You had already forgotten my face,
Eventhough it was wrapped in lace,
Just beneath the Casket Case.

I fucked up my entire life.
I just thought it was time I'd paid the price.