Death's Reality Check

To wish for death, a reality check?
Help me believe in what once was,
For all that I am is slipping away,
Into black pitch, where no abyss returns,
To see reality for what it is.

I used to see you through bright eyes,
Now darkened into the darkest night,
Belly full with child, yet still slight,
Unkown our future of black and white,
So is wishing for death a reality check?

Where did we go wrong in early marraige song?
Where did day turn into the dark
and songs turn into nightmares
repeat perfomances of suicide attacks?
Yes, wishing for death is a reality check!

A chance to see right from wrong,
Day from night, what means the most,
My blood or my life, being a wife,
Chasing the past, living a ghost,
Painting a future, of other new days,

I'll wish for death another day.