Kiss of death

I was speechless and when you said those words I broke inside not knowing what to do. I sat there for hours, so hurt and in pain. Six months months of happiness went right down the drain. I tried so hard and it still wasn't good enough, if this is love I have had enough!
you broke up with me for another, how heartless can someone be, I wish I could just hide under the covers. Wasting my time, nothing to do, everything I used to do was always with you. You act like nothing ever happened, what the fuck is wrong with you! I loved you so much and obviously you didn't feel the same about me. But lying and cheating is enough to let my anger unleash. I just want to rip something open and tear another apart, but somehow it will just put me back to the start. Mixed emotions are tearing me apart, am I supposed to be sad or mad, how can 1 month make 2 people grow so far apart. I cant begin to explain how I feel, I wish I could just sleep forever, and cover myself with a shield. No more pain, no more darkness. I have a big hole instead of a heart, maybe its my fault for not being smart.
I should've said no and never looked back, just keep walking and follow the track.
I no longer feel, I'm  just empty inside, I wonder if its better just to hide.
I cant run away, because the problems eat me alive, they always come back no matter how hard I strive. Fight and strike, beat me down even if we're alike. I just want to DIE, and I'm tired of the lies, it only makes me cry and like a little boy I'll run and hide. Take cover and forget the relentless X lover. The very last time I saw you, we shared one last kiss.
Honestly, it is something I'll miss. That was what killed us and the reason I write this right now, one simple kiss of death, is more than my mind would allow