i cannot write him anymore
i cannot
he has become akin to me because you wrote his lover
you wrote his lover and you have become akin to the same
i don't want to relate to that and everytime
everytime i think about going back
about becoming him
i cannot
because i cannot seperate you from the lover or he from myself
i didn't mean to fall in love with you
but i did
and now that i see the smiling face and the comments
"we love it when he comes to visit
we love this boy"
i want to scream because i know that it could have been me
it could have been me
but because of what they said to you
it will never be me
i didn't mean to fall in love with you
and now that i think about it
i wish i never had
he is me and you are his lover
and everytime i want to go back
i superimpose us on them
so soon now
i suppose
i will kill him
because then i will not have to undergo all that is passing through my mind
i won't have to worry about being effected
by how you treat him
and how he loves the other
you treated him
like you treated me
and neither of us deserved it
i didn't mean to fall in love with you
but now that we have gone beyond this
i never will again
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I'm here..
I understand this poem probally more then most.. I am here for you and just the same Raven is here for Josh.. And though I would hate for him to go I know in a way it must be so for your state of mind.. This was a masterpiece that I am suprised to learn I know exactly what you are saying here..
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thank you dear. i have been debating and i may not kill him, if larsette decides to play cedric like she was mentioning. then maybe, just maybe, josh might end up with him. it depends on how its goes.
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yeah.. Oddly enough I was thinking of that.. I just could not think of how he would be brought back to life unles Dowel did it as part of his experiments.. Or the better idea I thought of was what if when Harry Potter kills the dark lord everyone that that Volemort killed in Harry's presence was brought back to life but that would make for interestings as that would mean Mom and Dad to would come back and so would Whisper and Willow's parents and their goat herd..
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that would be really bizarre! but at the same time it could make for some interesting plot points. of course i'll understand if you don't want to do that though; but i think how we came up with it was because sirius is alive, didn't that have something to do with miguel's experiment? i can see it being some insane thing that might happen. i dunno...and i can figure out a way to bring him back somehow. maybe it will have something to do with...i dunno. i'll figure something out. and if larsette doesn't want to play him...i dunno, maybe i will. unless you want to (or someone else). ^_^
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I would play him.. But I don't want to take him away from anyone else.. I am not sure how Black came back.. lol.. I think Miguel's rainbow stars thingy did mess up the cosmos in a way.. But I have a mind that is faulty at the moment.. But yeah, We can pin the blame on Miguel.. Just let me know..
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