PMS – “You’re Vicious Today!”

We were sitting 2 floors down from the ground floor
You and I and others were talking about fish, love, and shit.
I snapped at something that someone said (not you)
And you said, “You’re vicious today!”

You were smiling when you said it,
I knew it was a good-natured joke.
But still, it stung me, hard.
You didn’t know and I didn’t show anything at the time.

I just wanted to let you know that
I think you’re the greatest,
You can ask me anything and tell me anything,
And I have and will keep the obligation to continue to undisclosed
Our secrets.

But don’t tell me I am 'vicious.'
But don’t tell me 'no one cares.'
But don’t tell me 'I don’t care.'
But don’t tell me to 'go away' with out giving the truth, however simple.

You were smiling when you said it,
I knew it was a good-natured joke.
But still, it stung me, hard.
You didn’t know and I didn’t show anything at the time.

You will know you hurt me,
If I am lively and cheerful, and you say something, and I seclude myself.
It should remind you of the time I was saying something I thought was important,
But you didn’t.
And you said “no one cares,”
And I withdrew from the conversation.
You asked me if everything was alright.
I was touched by your indisputable concern,
And I told you I was fine, and I went back to being my cheerful self.
But deep inside, I didn’t go back to anything.
I found out that you didn’t take the time to find out what I thought was important.