Problem?

Upon a bed lies a girl
The black covers in a knot
And her red hair in a curl
Arms stretched in hate
Deep purple scars
That define her fate.
The things that kept her alive
Are slowly taking her away
She just wanted to survive.
But now all she sees is a problem
She can't show anybody
They wont just wont fade.
A huge web of lies once again.

Tears streaming down
Her mind a book that wont close
And each chapter
Each page that turns
Is a mistake that doesnt show


Singing herself to sleep
Wanting to dream happily
but in problems creep.
She wants to be thin
She has no control.

This is where the poems stops and the feelings release
Coz everyday I feel like im time bomb
My neck in a noose
And everyone is waiting ,watching me fall
Let me go until I look so far gone
A memory in the distance
My heart has never been small.

You want emotions you say?
Well have them take all of mine
Want my problems in a list
Well with me thats fine.

My dad is slowly abandoning me
My sister was still born
I have a home like a prison
And all my friends are gone.
I'll never make the team
My scars are messy
I never see my eyes gleam
Coz IVE LOST ALL HOPE

Last night was the night of the 2nd week where i watched the sun rise
Drying my tears but stinging my eyes
Il never be good enough i've always done something wrong
My dreams have disapeared because when i cut i was too strong
I strive for perfection because thats all i know
I shouldnt eat that , i do, and then i try and make myself puke
Im allergic to milk so lets drink a gallon
and hope in the morning i dont have to get up i dont have to wake
to the same old shit once again,
I feel ugly and used lost and abused
I cant even say how i feel you'll just fucking tell me its not true
Well im sorry im constantly being told how to be
And im tired of that i want to be me
But i cant im labelled
Im the girl with the purple arm

Thank fucking god we have our lord
maybe he would like to piss on me some more?

I have way more i could tell you and way more to say
But i guess i can't because im wasting away