Have you ever just thought about it
the thin piece of pain
pushing softly through your
less-than-loved flesh?
Control would be lovely
wanting to live has its price
you sit locked in a cell day to
ever-fucking day
not able to be who you want
not able to be what they want
not able to be in control!
i wish i could do SomeTHing!
but, no, i'm stuck in this bloody apartment
soaked blood-red with pain and anguish
of not being good enough
of hating life
of hating self.
THis place is suffocating me.
Paranoid or not-I can't breathe.
I try, then I cry -truth-
tears soak my mother's bed
i want to run but the laws binding;
my earthly prison holds me
-not lovingly-
Does anyone realize?
Does anyone know?
Do I want them to?
Is that selfish?
I can't wait to grow my
deformed, bruised wings
Why can't I fly yet?
I'm SO ready
How many people breakdown
like this? and as often?
One of two identities is
scraping its way to the
surface of my conscientiousness.
It is either genius or insanity
or maybe even sanity -but
somehow I doubt sanity exists.
Everyone in this world
is fuckin' messed up
Hitler was just one proud to show it.
I can breathe again
but i still despise writing.
I suck at writing
Damn it!
Author notes
the writing i despise is writing for others, but the problems are more than writing... all my anguish, or at least some is left in this poem-like it or not, it was my feeling at that moment.
ya ever feel that?
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Have you ever just thought about it
the thin piece of pain
pushing softly through your
less-than-loved flesh?
that first verse or stanza whatever was really well done. i liked how the diction sort of deteriorated as the mood became more frenzied. i agree though, insanity is the only truly sane thing.
just give yourself a hug from me when you feel this way -
I love you babe.
And I know you wouldn't act upon such thoughts either. Which is why i'm not stealing a car to come there. I feel you, i hear you kay? ♥
No one ever really knows what stops us. What quashes insanity....but sanity's always there.
Sometimes its just not screaming loud enough to drown out the pain.
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