Bleeding Heart

Unable to fight the haunting words,
the troubles that plague my mind
I'm drawn into the senseless world of darkness
that I've created inside my heart.

Caged within myself I listen to their words,
let them beat me down,
let them crush me -
bruised : broken -
the curse will never end.

Endless torment, eternal and swift,
all you could do was laugh at me,
tear at my heart, rip at my soul,
watch me with gleaming eyes as you broke my sanity -
turning me into someone I'm not.

The aggression so strong,
I hurt to stop hurting
and you continued inflicting your pain,
traumatising me,
tainting me forever and beyond.

You had no idea of the fears,
of the troubles that I went through,
the deaths of friends,
the murder of another -
you though I was so tough,
that I was insane,
but I was not -
just haunted by my daemons,
the lives lost to me,
the words tainting me.

Forgiveness doesn't come easily
and the pain never ceases -
I look in the mirror and see the ugliness you saw,
the worthless you provoked from me -
you knew I was hurt, bleeding from my heart
and yet you despised me
just because...

because I was nice,
different,
not like you.