where the hell am i

i dont know where i am - i know where i've been
i was in the fantasy world of love
now i'm lost and alone - call me born in sin
he left - i cry - lift my eyes to above
it doesnt matter i guess
what i write or how i write
my life has becomes such a mess
he's gone - he is outta sight
my tears fall
roll down my face
the cuts are small
all in one small place
he lied
he hurt
i died
i'm dirt
he said sum things just to hurt me
he said he knew me
he said he could read me
then how could he not know what would hurt me
none of this matters as i build my walls
i am not gonna stay here unsheltered
my heart will be artic
my soul frozen
i will be so cold
i will be stone