F^uck-up

Hello, my name is Yami,
and i'd love to tell the world
everything that happened
and how it actually unfurled

i cost my child his head
and spare me i did his knife
i didn't kill was made me scream
i'd lived it my whole life

i know that i have problems,
yes, i know it's clear
but even though you've found him?
it's only been a year

but you can say whatever
because i don't care at all
matter of fact i can't feel
even though so deeply i fall

yes i do feel pain
internally it hurts me
i know that it's just nothing
because the bleeding i can't see

i swear to you i'm dying
and i know i'll have to leave
but as long as i'm with you
my heart will mend and weave

Hello my name is Yami
and yeah the message is clear
that what's going on in your house
is happening right here

i know that it looks bad
or i wouldn't be sitting right here
expressing myself to courts and shrinks
about my sacred fear

i won't let you go
no matter what happens you know
so don't think or say that
you're the one who'd go

i love you so dearly
yet i love them not a chance
i try to make it better
with each horrific glance

i am sorry Kyle
for what you suffered for today
and i'm sorry i'm your only one
that makes you feel this way

i'm sorry to myself too
and the mirror before my shadowed-ness
i'm sorry for all thy wrath i've wrought
and sorry for God's pathetic bliss

i hate you mom and dad
for all the shit you've said
i hope that someday you'll forgive yourselves
with a bullet towards your head

forgive me my Lord
that sits so far below
i forgive myself now
just thought that you should know

i'm ready for the worlds
that everyone fails to see
i'm ready to fight for my lover
Kyle, can't you see?

i'm ready for my demise
for all the pain i've caused him
but most importantly over all
i'm ready for life to dim

Kyle, this is for everything i have now
and everything we've lost
this if for my sister Alex
and the lives that we have cost

in the end they'll know
that i'm ready for this pain
because i've completely lost it
and it's my very fucking name

so everyone get ready
for the worst that's as if yet
don't fear the laws of the pathetic
because they'll die i'll bet

i'm ready for the worst
because it's not that bad now
with a knife to my wrist and acid in my throat
i am ready somehow

so hey yeah my name is Yami
and i agree to all the above
i wouldn't do anything that would hurt myself or another
that another being my love

so go ahead and read me
my thoughts and distand mind
perhaps you'll find truth in the darkness
in the end... it's nothing but mine