Alone Again

In the midst of humanity
Surrounded by people
Yet, alone again.
Never connecting, always separate,
Continually on my own.

A hollowness pervades my body,
My heart aches for comforting words.
To know someone cares, someone cherishes me.
To be a part of someone else’s life.
Ingredients all missing from an existence lonely.

I put on a brave face, a mask all see through.
I pretend it doesn't hurt, it wont affect me,
But all the while my heart withers,
My soul cries to reach out and
Connect with another.

Where is the difficulty?
Ordinary people converse every day.
Why am I always different, always separate?
Why do I never belong?

Desperately I try to reach out
But there is a desperation, a falseness.
Something that does not ring true.
Something sensed by others,
Something that keeps me separated.

Occasionally I connect, but never long enough.
Occasionally I make a difference, but never big enough.
Occasionally I satisfy the need to belong, but never deep enough.
In the midst of humanity,
Alone again.