An Undeserving Embers and Ash

I don't deserve
These tears I cry
Out of angst and fear
There are people there
With real problems
My empty sadness
I am not alone
I try to tell myself
But in the front of my mind
Is the hard cold fear
I try to push it
And it won't go away
On this lover's day
I don't want to be here
While the smoke fills me
And exhale again
But it burns low
As it fades away
The embers and ash
Are all that is left