Passion leading to forever anger. (aim convo)

ME : I think Im going to kill my self on the 15th
ME : day after tomorrow.
ME : let everyone enjoy one last day.

HIM: we'll do it as a team

ME : no.
ME : people need you.

HIM: for wut

ME  or freindship/love

HIM:boring.

ME : when Im lying lifless in my crimson pool I want you to make things right.

HIM: amanda,
HIM: you gotta notice
HIM: when everybody wants you
HIM: you'll be dead
HIM: and when you want everyone
HIM: you'll still be dead

ME : no one wants me, life is only heading toward hell.

HIM: then let it take time

ME : those who love me will forget in time, as will my body rott away.

HIM: unless you wanna walk up to the gates holding hands

ME : you wont die.
ME : you wont kill yourself.
ME : Youve lost freinds before, why any different if I went?

HIM: It is you who fuels courage.

ME : there is no difference.
ME : I will die and you will go on.

HIM: u will die and in anger i will die also.

ME : as will my mother relise she made a mistake and she will learn to live in regret as did I.
ME : You wouldnt kill yourself.

HIM: and so will mine

ME : no one cares that much.
ME : just keep vianca and kim alive.
ME : do that for me?

HIM: once again you are fueling my mental dispute on life after death and blood after slice
HIM: i shall not
HIM: my life objectives will be canceled

ME : its my one last wish.

HIM: obsolete

ME : you will only gain more.

HIM: only gain more as in hell

ME : as they zip up my body bag, you will go back to your double life and live on in regret and anger but will be followed with love...which I will never gain.

HIM: on that sorrowful morning i shall pick up a razor and slice numerous times. however not in regret but in passion. love is no longer an emotion 2 me. only passion. passion to do wut is right. you do so i shall do so also.

ME : passion is never felt for those who are left. left in the corner of darkness waiting for a leave, to show that they had a goal. To show that there was a only one meaning in life, to make it past and go on to death. to show there is a way to pass life and start again in a darker place that fits their inner passion.
ME : passion is only in exsistence to show their is path to make it beyond love and hate to find what is within.

HIM: Yet passion can get you through a day. A year. A lifetime. Passion can make you get up each day and put on your clothes. Yet passion can make you want death. There is a path to make it beyond love and hate. but it was once said there is a fine line between love and hate. I am that fine line.

ME : but yet, the thin line is what pushes one to break, break through all passion, love, and hate to a place of no exsistence.
ME : when there is no exzistence there are no lines, no lines to push, no lines to love, no lines to hate, there is only a life of darkness and emptiness, a life of my inner passion.

HIM: Rather a place where one does not feel love or hate. but passion. passion can be love or hate. to hate with a passion. or love with a passion. it is passion that adds to emotions.

ME : when leaving all behind, you move beyond.........beyond all emotions and all tags to follow with emotions. when in a place of no exzistence there is no passion to pull you down, there is no passion to carry you away. there is nothing, nobody, and that nothingness will soon be my soul vanishing out of exzistence.
ME : when I vanish you shall carry on the smiles I once held.
ME : but I will drag the hate I once followed.

HIM: but is 'no emotion' an emotion. the emotion of a numbing sense. WHen numb can you smile and mean it. Can you say i hate you and mean it?

ME : there is no such matter of 'no emotion'. every smile is hiding a lie, every peice of hate is holding a shadow of love. 'no emotion' is emotion, but when dragged beyond there isnt a thing, just emptiness, no smiles, nor frowns, no laughs, or tears, no screams nor whispers, no love nor hate, there is no nothing., only a nothingness of emptiness.

HIM: with this last comment i concur to the fullest. but remember i am numb. if i were to cut i would not feel so, amanda do not make the mistake so many have, or i shall walk with you hand in hand to the gates of hell. Goodnight My dear friend. Tread Softly because your action effect all.

ME: after all these lies ive heard, I would love dearly to be followed down to the gates. Once again I wont be alone in disgust and hate. To follow with me is to love, and therefor you show that you do show love. Once again you are bringin your pasison to a unloved soul.