A Beautiful Lie

Such a pretty poison
your words
Such a beautiful lie
your friendship
Yet still I drink the poison
and believe in the lie.

Willingly I suffer
just to get another taste
like a drug
you have a hold on me
your well-intentioned cruelty
almost too much to bear.

You look at me and smile
so innocent in your joy
oblivious to the pain you cause
hidden behind a facade of strength
I laugh at your stories and grin
but behind empty eyes I'm fading away.

I fell in love with you
a grievous mistake, I know
I've denied and tried to hide it
so afraid to let you know
I'd rather lose myself than you
and it's killing me inside.

But yet I'll keep on smiling
I'll laugh at all your jokes
I'll be there when you need me
I'll watch you loving someone else
I'm trading my heart for your happiness
I love you just that much...