My angel came from heaven
though I had to give him back
Too soon for my liking
for it was out of my hands
Please let me hold him
I want to brush my lips
against his cheek
But it was not to be as he
would be gone in a few short weeks
He would not die in vain
I kept telling myself
He'd not be forgotten
on some dusty shelf
A child so small can he
really make a difference?
Oh yes beamed our lord as my
son made his entrance
I will always grieve for
this small son of mine
proof of these empty
arms by my side
Yes the years have passed and
the shattered dream is still there
I have proof of this each
time I hold his lock of hair
I know that he gave so
that others could live
Whenever I think of him
I try to remember this
So long my dear son
please don't stray too far
For if you do it will surely
again break my heart...
Author notes
My son was born 17 weeks premature on 9/11/1988. He should have never made it out of the operating room alive let alone survived 26 more days.He weighed 1Lb and was only 11'' long. By the time he died he weighed under a pound. His skin was so translucent that you could see through his tiny hands.I was so desperate for him to live that i enrolled him into an experimental study for a drug that would rapidly grow his lung tissue.He ended up developing pneumonia in his tiny lungs and within 24 hours we realized that we were prolonging his death not his life. So we ended the life support and cradled him as he passed. The one and only good thing that came out of this is that the drug was approved, and today thousands of premmies are alive because of this life saving drug. Here in St.paul, minnesota at the childrens hospital, there is a tree planted in his honor. The part of my poem that says he gave so others could live... well, this is what i meant(the experimental drug).Peace to all
Chrissy
A contest entry
- Things we wanted to say. by Random Thoughts.
450 points, ended February 21, 2007, 22 entries
Silver trophy winner
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an inspiration to us all on how love can be felt always and how its still better to give what you can to help others...i wish you well in your contest
cheers
Jen
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This is so heart touching darling!!! I have the most amazing feeling from reading about your baby. I can't thank you enough for sharing your beautiful child with me.
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Congrats on the silver and bronze trophies. I am deeply sorry for your loss... I cannot imagine going thruogh such pain. But you have obviously grown stronger and your tragedy has inspired something deeply moving. Thank you for entering and good luck.
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I am so very sorry for the sorrow that you endure each day. Loosing one so young breaks the heart into millions of pieces, and some of those pieces are lost forever. I lost two granddaughters and 1 grandson just last year. The girls ages 9 & 12 and the grandson was born premature and stillborn, he was 14 ounces. I will never forget holding him in the palm of my hand, so tiny and beautiful. They say God takes the best, and I believe that. And although my heart is mending some, I am sure some of those pieces went to heaven with each of them. A very beautiful heartfelt tribute poem and author notes.
Cindy
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This poem is so touching and sincerely heartfelt. I had a lump in my throat whilst reading this and now I'm all teary and sad. Your words are expressive and deep and you have poured so much emotion out within this piece... I did only want a poem up to 30 words however and this is way over, though I am honoured to have read this and am glad you chose to share this with your readers... Love and eternal light, Lavender Butterfly.
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How terribly sad this is my friend! I know the hurt never goes away and I feel for you! You have penned a wonderful tribute to his life however short! He shall be waiting at the pearly gates when you arrive in heaven! Blessings to you and if you ever have the need to chat, let me know!
Hugz~
Frogz~
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I find it almost impossible to cry as I always hold my feelings inside due to my upbringing (a long story) but this made my eyes watery as I am greatly sorry for this...this hits a soft spot for me as I have special love for the young ones...near my fathers grave is a section dedicated to children and I always visit them...you are very srong-far stronger than me-I think as I tend to use anger as a defense mechenism even towards God sometimes....God bless your son and you and yours,a touching piece written from your kind and gentle soul...thank you
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This is such a beautiful tribute to your little son. I am so sorry for your loss, one day you will be with him again. It was a miracle you got to have him for the short time you did and I'm sure you treasure each of these days. This poem really hits me, while I lost my first son, and when my third son was born (second living), I almost lost him too. He was in NICU for 17 days with PPHN, and that is a torment that no one can understand if they've never been through it, not knowing from one day to the next how things will be.
I wish you all the best.
♥
whisper
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omg...
that's so sad. I'm in tears right now. I don't know if I should be happy, or sad... I really like how you added a sense of optimism to such a sad story. awesome write. I'm speachless.... this was just so... emotional. I absolutely love this!!!! The title fits perfectly, with this already awesome and touching poem. the emotions in this are just strong... just what I was looking for in this contest. Good luck.
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A beautiful poem filled with a mother's love
Oh, Chrissy, I have so much respect for you and admiration, too. You have been so strong and brave and I know your heart is still broken from losing this precious little boy. He is an angel in Heaven and knows you are his mother. 
When you die he will come to get you and take your hand and you will know who he is and be so GLAD!
Melodies
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wow, how very awful and sad! your author notes really nailed it for me... urafinalist.
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I'm sure the pain is still in your heart. I hope you had other children. The pain is in your write. However, the flow is excellent. Good luck in this contest.
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This is so so sad I had the same feelings when my daughter was stillborn im so sorry for your loss.You will always treasure those memories. My favorite lines are :
He would not die in vain
I kept telling myself
He'd not be forgotten
on some dusty shelf.
I say that about my daughter everyday her life is important to me.
Thank you for your entry best wishes
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This is a very sad piece
. I am sorry that you had to suffer such an experience. That must've been a nightmare for you. I can only imagine, and that still is not even close. This was written very well. It is touching. Thank you for entering, and good luck.
~ Wild
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How sad for your loss... I was only able to have one child myself and nearly died twice during the delivery. Congrats on your silver~ good luck on the contest! -
Wow thats so sad . Sorry to hear of such a loss. Your poem is great. Good luck in the contest.
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omg!!! this is soooooooox100 good!!!!!! i'm soooooooooooox150 sorryyyyyyyx160!!! *crys* welcome to the final's!!!
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very very nice.
im short on time so ill keep it short and sweet..very good. flow was nice. very emotional. sorry for your lost..i know how it is to loose someone so preacious and close to you. and i know it is hard telling the doctor to pull the plug. happened to my cousin..she was 17 weeks preme and she didnt make it. sorry for your loose hun!
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Only a mon
that is filled with love could pen such words. I pray that oneday you & your son shall be together again forever.
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I'm so sorry for your loss. I know it happened a long time ago, but I can't imagine how hard that must have been for you.
The way you put this poem together, was just perfect. You feel sadness and grieve, and reading the authors notes, and knowing the whole story is just so sad.
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i can only imagine what this feels like but your poem was certainly heartbreakingly honest. so many lines that just rang so true. great write, my thoughts are with you.
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I have deep sympathy for your loss...I know it was hard...Thanks for sharing your story well-appreciated love, Raneika
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Wow, I could seriously feel the emotions that were in this poem. I'm so sorry that happened. I really am. Thanks for being willing to share that. Also thanks for entering. Good luck. God Bless you and your family.
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Wow
I'd never read this poem, but was hunting through them trying to find out which one you'd won the silver for (well done btw!!).
This was so so hard to read. I am deeply sorry for your loss, I can feel the pain put into this poem, it must have been diffiult to write, but it's an incredible acheivement. The title is so stunning, it's really sweet, and reading your comments below it's fantasic to know that you were both such troopers =] I have an unmeasureable amount of admiration for you Chrissy, I really really do.
Thankyou for sharing this, it's a real eye opener and heart mover.
Just stunning.
Frankie X
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this piece relly touched me and I can tell how much you care about your son, he's very lucky. It had a great flow and was beautiful thank you for sharing and best of luck in the contest.
One applaud for you and one for your son!
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This poem was really touching. I liked how it flowed though it was a tad confusing...I think the poem is touching...It made me a bit upset. What exactly happened that made you write this?
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The flow is a bit sketchy and irregular, but I like the message. Thank you for your wonderful entry, and good luck in my contest.
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i liked it
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