You were my friend, my playmate.
Naive, I did not know any better.
So strange, how my little delicate mind
was so trusting of you.
You were my fun, my laughter, my smiles.
Twisted, mangled through a tiny blender I spun.
Regrettably, I let you around me.
You were my laughter, my hugs.
I was squeezed, in your large vice grips,
Turning me into a small cup of bitter lemonade.
Apologetic, you had turned me.
You became my anger, my destruction.
Hatefulness, you taught me.
Anger, you planted in me.
Burnt in flames, I crash landed-face first.
You were my tears, endlessly falling one after another.
Salted, shriveled-an ugly prune I became.
Excuses you gave me, to throw at the world
That was trying to only love me.
You are the lurking shadows reminding me.
Terrified, to turn corners poorly lit.
The candle of pain endlessly burned.
I had to keep this destruction going to feel 'normal.'
You are nothing now, yet everything I was then.
Sick, fearful I was, ailing with black holes.
Shutting doors-before I let them open.
I knew this game, oh too well.
You are my fuel, my everlasting determination...
To never be her again,
To never see her again,
To never hear her again,
And to also...never forget her.
I am resurrected-a white cloud and again pure.
I am revived into a warm blanket of sand.
I am forgotten, but I'll always remember.
I am estranged to you forever, by choice!
Author notes
Picture: me as a child. The child who became lost, after being "abused." I hope all those who can relate to this, can be reassured that there can be an end to the pain. It just takes time!!!
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I can relate to this a lot. I really feel your pain. This is really beautifully written. Your words flow so well. And your pain is in every one. I really love the ending where you found the peace at last. Masterful write.
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This poem is so full of emotion and tells a deep and dark story very well. It sunddenly switched from happy to sad in a very dramatic way. Very well written.
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This poem of yours is really deep.
Sorry you had to endure such a hard
and painful childhood. I hope that you
are well now and I wish you all the best!
Thanks for sharing this piece and best
of luck to you in the contest!
Jeremy0826 -
i think it is nicely written and about a real topic i hope to see more from you
thnx for entering
good luck
lil -
wowwww now that was deep! I love how you write in the last stanzas about how you will never be her again. And you are right who does this to kids? I would murder anyone who ever hurt my babies!
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ab-so-lutely!
Got tired of playing the roll of the victim! Gotta take a stance eventually, or else your life will fall into shambles!
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Im not sure what this man or person did to you but the poem is extremely powerful. Its full of emotion...love and then fear and then hate. Its wonderful imagery and its a beautiful poem. Well Written!
S~A~E
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