Days like these I want to go somewhere--
I frantically write in my diary
I waver
And glance over at blade used for crafting
I lift the plastic cap off
And feel the sharp razor
Why does it seem to make my emptiness fulfilled?
I run my finger up and down the edge
Till blood flows
What am I doing?
I lift my finger and watch the blood droplets fall
With each drop I felt better
After two minutes, it stopped
No-- Don't stop
I cut my arm and watched it bleed
Yet again, the bleeding stopped
I cut deeper in the same spot
My head felt light
The thoughts distorted
I closed my eyes
Pictured the blood dripping
Drip..Drop...Drip...Drip...
Sudden blackness
Author notes
Just depressed...Too bad the poem is no good...
Written June 16th, 2003
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I love that!! you described it so well i could see the picture in my mind! It was so "blood" wrenching as one might say!!
~~~Jordan~~~
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Sorry to read that you are depressed but happy that you took it out in a poem instead of doing the actions above! Keep writing! *sonya*
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Someone I hold very dear to me does this to herself.Every one around me thinks that she is just looking for attention. I believe that she is just trying to escape the horrors she has to face everyday. You have captured the feeling of deliverance so perfectly
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I find the poem very real, heavy, sad. I know that people do this.....I just don't understand why. The poem is magnificent in it's descriptiveness. Vivid. I feel the sadness as well as the pain that motivates. A very good write.
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this poem is kickass, i do that to...but what did the sudden darkness represent? good poem anyway
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The poem isn't bad just needs so rearranging n stuff.... as for the subject... STOP it will only bring you more pain and angry (towards urself) in the end... and possible one you'll goo too far... I know it's hard, trust me i've been there, but once ur get into something like self harming its bloody hard to stop.
This was hard for me to read, my wrist went all funny and my eyes proper filled up.
Hmm just don't give up... depression sucks,YeS, but u can learn to cope with it and even get over it !!
Just take care and keep up the writing !!
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Cutting is addictive and a way to avoid and hide from the true pain by causing physical pain. This is a painfull read for me, especially the use of the ritual sword. Blood is considered as very powerful and should not be taken lightly. It's a great write, and very dark, spiraling into a depression.
Goddess love and blessed be, Daoine -
this is sad sweety
i cant tell ya toi stop cuz it'll make me a hipacrit.
but keep you head up
its a good poem
luv ya
me
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