Never going to feel the light again

can't kiss your lips anymore
I miss you holding me and loving me even if you didn't mean it
where we have been is where I want to be I miss you wanting me
what I had with you was worth everything to me
I've lost it all I can't believe this is happening

can you call my name out in the crowd
so I can turn around and run to you
push past everyone and jump into your arms
never let you go and forget we ever fell apart

tell me that the smile I have on my face is fake
tell me that you can't wait to escape everyone
but don't push me further away then you already have
everyone leaves me standing alone and I don't feel like I belong

when you look me in the eyes and tell me everything will be alright I believe you
now I feel so stupid that I didn't see the truth
couldn't see that you never loved me never wanted me
so my heart is breaking apart and dying

the tears I want to cry don't come
I turn to self destruction
taking the drugs to make me feel happy even though I'm not
but all I am left with is a empty spot where you used to be

can't make my heart stop loving you its too hard
why can't I be the girl that you want
but I know I'll never be her
so I scream at my reflection smashing it to pieces
my world hits the floor

I grab my coat and slam the door
all I wanted will never happen
I won't amount to anything and I can't never be yours
why was I ever born if all I was going to feel was pain

all this suffering can't be worth it
I thought I could deal with it if I got you but now I don't have that
all my friends are dying and my family hates me
I pull away back to my room where I can hide alone and forget about the fact that all I can think about is that I would give anything to have you love me

I try to keep you all going but my strength is weakening
hope I don't die before I get you all were you have to be
I miss the light that shined from inside me when I was with you
why does life hate me this much
all I wanted was to have you and nothing else had to work out for me

nothing is ever on my side
the air I'm breathing is suffocating
turn off the lights so I can slip away
I never let go of you but you let go of me