Crying for days on end, yet holding the tears inside,
Letting them rip at my insides instead of showing my fear and cry.
I'm breaking down, each day becomes worse, this is just too much.
Break down, cry a few tears, it never helps this pain within.
One day, more shit piled up than in a year.
This week fucking sucks, I don't know what to do.
I'm not perfect, so why do I try?
Because others see me as it, apparently.
They expect me to make A's and B's and to know everything in school.
They expect me to smile and look up all the time no matter what.
They expect me to stay strong and not to cry nor frown.
They expect me to laugh and sing and be happy.
They get angry when I finally break loose and get mad at someone.
They yell and scream when all I want is to be left alone.
They bitch at me when I cry for them to just leave, knowing I'm alone in this world.
They expect me to forgive and forget.
They expect me to be happy and to be in love and to know everything's right.
They expect me to laugh instead of cry.
They expect me to love and care and look after everyone.
They see me as Perfection; They want me perfect in every little way.
They want me to have huge breasts and a perfectly rounded ass.
They expect me to wear revealing clothing.
They expect me to do everything right and to know everything.
They expect an answer every time they ask a question.
They expect Perfection, for that's what they choose to see.
And when I can handle no more and finally let my bottled up emotions free,
They get mad and upset, seeing that I'm not Perfect, yet still believing I am and that I'm wrong for what I've done.
Life, Love, Happiness.
Don't you see?
Perfection.
Me.
Mandy Chelcey Hassell.
It's all just an illusion.
Just a fake image flashed in your mind.
Just what you want and need, something I can't provide.
I'm not Perfect, I'm far from it.
What you see in me is nothing but a mere illusion.
If you don't like me for who I really am,
An imperfect emotional girl lost in this world,
Then okay. I don't really care. Because it's me.
Never am I perfect and never will I be.
Never will I be all those things you expect from me.
Never will I be okay, never happy, never have true love.
I'm me...
Not who you want me to be.
In your mind, I'm nothing but a Perfect Illusion...
The image fades tonight.
Author notes
My apologies for the language used...
{Contest Info}
Twilight Beauty, Option One.
In a list
A contest entry
- ♥i m p e r f e c t i o n [[options]]♥ by oldphotosonlybringt.
450 points, ended October 12, 2007, 19 entries
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excellent
A good poem is one that perfectly translates the emotion of the poet into words. A great poem is one that universalises it.
with best wishes.
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This poem was made great by the strong ending you provided. I enjoyed it and felt your words ring true with the powerful closer.
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That was very cool, different people see us in different ways so I guess I had never thought of it being illusions. What a very insightfully way to put it, the perfect Illusion and when I get mad I can be the perfect storm. LOL Just kidding, I really don't get mad, really mad but yeah well done...
Cyber Artist
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wow this is veru good
u have unique style of writing u should keep it up
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sweetie,
this was amazing just what i was looking for in this option, i loved it bunches thank you for such a wounderful poem, though i am sadly going to DQ. you for you did not follow all the rules feel free to go back and read over the rules then re,enter this lovely poem, much love..xxx -
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So sorry.... I must've read over that >.<
I put the information in my author notes as you've asked... Once again sorry for not doing it before.
And thank you for your kind words
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this was a great poem
you should never think of yourself as trying to be perfect or have to live up to what people see you as
everyones perfect in their own way
and everyones perfect to different people
just because you dont think you are, doesnt mean other people dont
and talking of perfect
and the same could be said for this poembeautiful poem hun -
This poem is something that I think a lot of people can relate to. I know I did. It was written beautifully with a lot of personality and emotion. It's chalk full of passion. It flows, and I love it. It's beautiful.
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Beautiful poem. No one is perfect, I can completely relate with this poem. Nice poem ^_^
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wow- you have a lot of personality, passion, and lots going for you, or you would never be able to even express yourself this way! Don't take yourself for granted! Not everyone can articulate those tears that are ripping at their insides. You do a fantastic job of it. I am now what they call 'middle aged', and now that I have passed through my youth, never to be returned to me, I would say the biggest mistake I made, and many young people make is to take seriously (to heart) the opinions of others. Never listen to opinions,- only facts, and make sure facts and your own heart, and truth are guiding you where you going, and you'll get far! This is a wonderful write.
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The only way I can express myself is through poetry and writing. I agree that too many people listen to opinions rather than facts, myself included. It's the pressure of the expectations, of people wanting them to be someone they're not, and sometimes it reaches them and then they themselves want to be that person who they aren't, and they try to change themselves for what they think is the better, but mostly is the worse. I still blame it all on society
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Yes, there will always be those expectations out of one's life whether by ourselves or our loved ones. Overall loved the alliteration and the rhyme and meter, all well placed.
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Hi I wanted to make a comment on your comment, because rarely do I see such helpful guiding comments, and this helped ME! Well placed meter, rhyme, and alliteration...I am going to remember those things next time I write a poem. I am just a practicing poet and in the past my thinking has been to write in 'no form or form', 'meter or no meter' - your comment and another person on here got me realizing that there are other options. Thanks for such a valuable comment, not just to this author, but also to any beginning poet who reads it!
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In your mind, I'm nothing but a Perfect Illusion...
The image fades tonight.
I do agree with the frustation of life here...it is really very painful and disappointing as well..You are very sensitively revealing here the pain of your heart...I am just speechless by reading such touching words here..what to say and how to react?..stunned and trying to understand that how you wrote it so sensitively this one?..just beautiful work by the soul of the poet..
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It's basically society. Things have changed. Everyone expects too much out of people. Many teenage girls are faced with these same expectations. Reason for anorexia, they try to be someone everyone else wants them to be. -shrugs- I wasn't in such a great mood last night when I wrote this, but now that I look at it I myself see that it can relate to everyone in some sort of way. Right?
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Mandy hun no one is perfcet - just look at Chad myself. I don't care how many times you need to break down and ask to be left alone, I'm here for you as a friend, like you always have been me. I don't expect anything like that from you, except for you to be yourself, no matter how that woman I see comes out. I love you Sissy.
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Mellie
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im not perfect either but hanging around you taught me that very well that no one is perfect but we can always try eh my friend?
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Idc if your perfect or not, idc about any of it, you're the one I want, and thats not going to change, I love you Mandy
~Corey~
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no one is ever prefect...
sorry..
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