Every day I am forced to look back at the sad egsistance of my childhood.
Forced to look back at every memory of my life,
And relize your not in them.
Now you wonder why, I hate you so much,
Wonder now why it is that your only daughter has forgotten your name.
Everyday I am forced to relive my past mastakes because of you.
You never let them die.
You break a child because of something you do.
Now it is your turn to die.
You killed me along time ago when you through me away.
Now i've come back to haunt you, every dieing day.
you'll regrete what you did to me, every heart break.
Every shed tear I let fall because of you.
I will take it out on your life.
Now you see the hatred that you have put in me.
I hate you with every being of my body.
I wish the most painfull death on you.
I never new it would be so gratafing to see you dead.
Slowly I wait untill that day,
Counting every secound.
With these last few words I chant.
I HOPE YOU DIE!!!!
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i feel the same way about my dad,he treates me like im a burden to him and stuff like that,so i know where your comin from....love ya,and you know that iam her for you also
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thats okay, I took that wrong, there are alot of there in this world that get miss treated and no one ever understands what they go through untill you find someone else that has been through the same thing
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A rather sad thing it is. You can feel the heated emotion in this. Good job.
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once or twice I thought about killing myself but over time I have grown to shut him out, yeah it's been awhile since I've wrote anything but hey I tried. Not to mention I may be putting some more on here. It's just my stile and not to mention I was in a dark mood that day.
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Well, that was bitter. And I can relate. I used to write hate notes regarding my dad & step father especially all the time. Abandonment, abuse...it's all death, for the living.
Tragic that you had to endure it.
If I may offer a few suggestions. I know that spelling doesn't count, but it greatly helps the reader enjoy it more. Plus it shows that you put a little extra effort into your writing. If you want people to believe that your heart and soul are in your words...that's a step you may wish to take.
The other thing that you can do is what I did. I started off writing poetry / songs...and then a year..two years later I would read them and they would bore me...so I went back in and changed a lot of the phrasing by thesausizing words. You can do that in ms word or www.thesaurus.com
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Nothing can ever replace the awful void of a father leaving his child behind and going off with another woman and you 2 younger brothers with nothing but a evil smirk and head nodd. My father is the lowest of the low, he kids his kids till he's tired of them then he goes and signs his parental rights away and has nothing else to do with you.
The only thing that reall has helped me in this time of need is my moms first husband has addopted me, saying that I am more like him anyway so there is no need to shed unnessary tears for that scum bag. Not many people can under stand how it feels to be a small child and everywhere you look there is a couple or some child playing with there family memebers and there beside them is there father and all you can do is sit there and stare at them because the rage and gelousy is so powerfull it scares you from every being of your life.
But as I grew older I found away to harness my hatred for this man and let it out in my poetry. -
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I know all about abuse and abandonment, I've been there. Physically beat and verbally abused by my dad when i was just 4, 5, 6 7 years old etc... I went through that typical nighmarish divorce at a young age, and my step father moved in and he made my biological father look like an angel! I was physically beaten to the point where I couldn't move, not once, not twice...daily...until I as 18!
I know all about it.
And I know a few kind words and thoughts don't erase one once of the pain endured then, now and tomorrow. I was just being polite, that's all. If it were possible to feel better about it all tomorrow, that's my wish to you is what I was saying.
Regarding the spelling. I apologize. I didn't know. I was just reading through new poems, and I clicked right on the poem (not the profile) to prevent any sort of biased opinion on the writers work.
I've since read that in your profile, and I humbly apologize.
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