Dearest Ashleigh,
Please listen to me. I know you are only six, but what I am about to say is very important. In your life, you are going to go through many hurdles. Disappointment, betrayal, hurt, deceit, and so much more. I know this is all overwhelming, but when you are only eight years old, Kristen is going to pass away. She is going to move out of your life very soon. Daddy and her are going to get into an argument. It is not your fault, doll. But then you are going to sadly lose her. Again, it is not her fault nor yours. I know she told you she would never leave you, but within your heart her soul is cuddling next to you.
In February, a lot is going to happen. Kirsy and Krissy are going to pass away. Both from failures of internal problems. Mommy is also going to get hurt. But this is the act of God. Do not lose faith in him, he is still with you. It hurts me to tell you this, but only two years later, Meme is going to pass on. Spend as much time as possible. Beg and plead Daddy to take you to the hospital to see her. She is going to look scary, all the wires that will be hooked up to her, but she's still the same. She loves you very much.
When you start highschool, please be careful. You and your best friend, Mandi are going to have a lot of fun times. As well as laughs. There will be one boy at the end of the year, Tony Grencho. Be careful of him, angel. He is no good for you. That is where the hurt and betrayal come in. He will begin lying to you. Hurt you so much and make your pain so much more harder to deal with. I wish I didn't have to tell a little girl like you, all happy and joyous this, but please be careful. Don't start cutting. That is when you hurt yourself on purpose. My arms are filled to the brim with scars. I really regret it now. I want you to go out with the Tony person. Try to learn to love him even after I told you what he will do to you. Because this now brings me to the end of your sophomore year of highschool... or as you may know, tenth grade.
Nearing the end of your year, you are going to find that Tony has been lying to you and telling you things. You will also get into arguments with people you thought of as friends. They are named Mandi, Alexa, and Liz. Mandi, in the months to come will pull out as your best friend still, as well as Liz. Darling, try not to end yourself up in the hospital. But you will find out that you become an aunt once again. To a small little girl named Skyler Kristen. Trust me, you'll love her. She's absolutely adorable and I wish I could send you a picture of her as well.
In the summer between your sophomore and junior years, you will find yourself on a teen chatting network on the web. Find a male named Carmine. He is absolutely lovely and will love you unconditionally, unlike Tony did. Please listen to me. Be on there on August 18th, 2006. He will change your life forever, princess. I promise this.Tell him everything. You will love him.
Much love Ashleigh and take care of yourself. You shall need it in the years to come.
Love, Ashleigh, yes, I am you.
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