"You're gonna make me loathe you when you go
How could I love you so?"
Strumming my guitar
that was the song I was singing when I first met you
but I just couldn't believe it because you were the One.
I held your hand when you were afraid and the dark was closing in
but you were holding out on me even then.
"Wrappin' me 'round your little fingers pulling so tight
I'm confounded and surrounded, how can it not be right?"
I wiped away your pitiful tears captivated,
your willingness to show such vulnerability -
blew me away.
I tried so hard to tear myself away when the doubts billowed in
but once you'd found me, the addiction grew,
we were grafted together, you standing on my roots, two as one.
In that instant of holding hands and connected dots
I knew I was meant to be with you.
No matter what my momma said or my friends
I wouldn't listen, shaking my head in stubborn disbelief
unwilling to let go of my obsession.
"How did you open my heart and see past my fears
I've been so lonely all these years."
Now I know when someone seems too good to be true,
I'm not looking hard enough yet or don't want to believe what I see.
I knew deep in my soul I couldn't wholly trust you, but God knows,
I wanted to.
I almost did, the night before your last.
"Loving turns to loathing after trust is gone
Make love to me until dawn."
Now here I am
sitting so silly in this cold two bedroom apartment alone;
$200 light on rent with the heat slated for cancellation.
You didn't give me your name, a child,
or any other tangible thing in spite of all your dreams and promises
except...
I went to the doctor today, something just wasn't right . . . .
She said they'd know for sure when the tests come back but it looks like herpes.
So, you did leave me something to remind me of you,
regular pain when I need it the least.
"Betrayal lingers on the air, a familiar tune
I'm gonna loathe you soon
But tonight we can make love 'til dawn
"Cause love don't turn to loathing 'til all trust is gone."
If I knew the song would have come true
would I still have loved you?
Author notes
I suppose this isn't clearly 1 or 2 - a mix of the two.
A contest entry
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The herpes line is, urm unusual - and very funny, though I am careful - there is a message under here I know, quite 'wordy' - the romance chick eh?
A great piece.
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herpes is always unusual to read about. funny? I suppose if it weren't so often the truth, it would be. 1 in 10 adults in the u.s. are either carriers or have it. it is wordy. you're right sometimes as you said you just throw things out there. i really like trumping people who are feeling sorry for themselves.
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when u get this due to contest i do not know who u r and u r blocked from me knowing so please i want to comment on ur poem fully so please send me a msg ThunderCatWonder08 thank u lorren
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Damn thats just wow i have nothing to say or do wich can make you feel better great write xxlorren
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Very decriptively written.
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well written n so sad many times this happens when we dont think first
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