Dearest Heidi:
I write to you from the year 2007. You just gave birth to our beautiful Jaymie last October. I know you're feeling a little stressed. I remember when we went for our six week check up only to find out we were pregnant again! WOW! That day was crazy. We cried and cried, and then decided if God gave us this child, we would be okay. Then we got up the nerve to go and tell Trey we were pregnant.
Hold on tight sweetheart. That little Jaymie girl is going to bring you so much joy. During times when we feel like throwing in the towel, her smile and sparkling eyes serves to inspire us.
This little one in your belly? Dig this and PAY ATTENTION! I don't care how many times they tell you it's a boy, SHE is NOT a boy! Take back all those boy clothes asap and trade them in Sugar!
Okay, listen! You need to brace yourself for what I'm about to tell you. I know we loved Trey with all our heart in 1997. Remember, I AM YOU! I know everything we will experience for the next ten years.
You need proof? Who else, other than family, knows that we can belly dance and our Mommy used to make us roll our belly for company all the time?
Okay. So now that you know I am you, and you and me are we, let me continue.
Trey. He is your world, I know this. What I'm about to tell you could change history, maybe even change who I am today. This could be a good thing or a bad thing, but I'm going to urge you to trust me and take the risk.
You need to leave him Heidi. Take the children and go. I know it's scary, but YOU CAN DO IT! I know you can, because we do it in 2004. Save us and the kids a lot of heartbreak, hurt, and instability, and leave him now.
Over the next eight years he is going to be caught in multiple affairs. He is going to develop a drug habit that will leave us andthe kids homeless, not just once but twice. Eventually he will become physically abusive and he will try to kill us.
You must listen to ME and not to our weak and forgiving heart Heidi.
Give me, you, and the children a better future. Be resilient.
Prepare yourself careully and make that move.
Oh! One more thing! Value our Mommy. Talk to her and absorb every word. Love her like each day is the last. Spend time with her, and when you do, take a lot of pictures. She won't be around forever.
Listen to the voice of US!
Sincerely loving YOU!
Heidi
2007
Author notes
14) Write a letter to yourself 10 years ago. Tell yourself about your life now, the things you have experienced along the way. Things you would have wanted yourself to know as a child that might have made your life easier, tell your child self things that will make you a better person. Make it deep. THIS NEEDS TO BE AN ACTUAL LETTER, NOT A POEM.
A contest entry
- 18 PROMPTS, pick ONE and write from your HEART, I dare you. by SeptemberFaith.
1050 points, ended March 25, 2007, 36 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
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I loved this. You brought chills to my skin. It is amazing how hindsight can make all the difference. I wrote one of these about a year ago, and I know it really changed a lot fo things for me. It just brings you realization of who the hell you are and where you come from. Its a reminder of the struggles we've been through and I think it makes us a better person to realize, that it isnt our fault for the bad things we've been through.
You did an amazing job on this and I appricate the effort you took to enter this contest.
Good Luck Poet.
Criss -
Oh Sis, my heart goes out reading this, the heartbreak amongst the new life growing, I just want to wipe away the pain and the memories and show you brightness every day.
You just are one helluva warrior woman to me and I admire your verve to carry on and make it better. 
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Courageous
If even a fraction of a percent of this is true then you have more courage than I originally thought. This offers the reader a very thought provoking insight into who you are as a person and that takes a lot to open yourself like this.
You reveal the fact that you've made mistakes but more importantly were wise enough to learn from them. This piece shows, strength, remorse, frustration, all of it.
While I cannot leave any poetic comments concerning this piece, I can honestly say I walked away from this with a new found sense of respect for you.
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Excellent! I have no words for this as wow! It just blew me away! Awesome writing! Wish you all the best in the contest!
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