Rain clouds on stand-by.

There is summer heat and smothered love.

But there's such a beat for skys above.

And I'm keeping track of all the tears,

I held back for seven long years.

After the deep betrayal that I gave into,
And during that night that the skies went black.
I waited for the years renewal,
To promise myself I wouldn't go back.

To know there's something to destroy is easy,
But to live for half a year unknowing is misery.
And I lived on the sun for six dreaded months,
Before the test results returned, and my heart stopped.

I tested positive for strength, and hope, and faith.
And I failed all others that tested my hate.

I'm not angry, now.

I'm not going to spite.

But I'll never forget that drug-induced night.

A seering blue sky, and then the other left,
Me, alone with temptation, and a joint that's half-bereft.

With a minor mention of the softness of things,
I began a trial of dreaful deep pains.

I showered for hours, until the water ran cold.
But no matter how showered, I began to feel old.

In effect, I'm jaded, and on the inside, I've died.
But I'll never pay the nights that I resisted to cry.

I'm fueled to find that place, where all are free to be,
Happy beyond restraint... Neverland with you and me.

Years passed...
Hearts melted...
Pieces lost...
And a love found...

You're here at a keen time.
Now take your happy thought.
I know I've already found mine.