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If I'd Been Able To Forget

blood seeps from within
nobody knows the pain i'm in
close the door, lock it tight
no one but me in here tonight
watch the blood run down my arm
i cut again, causing harm
tears begin to flood my face
sadness begins to take their place
it wouldn't have to be like this
i wouldn't have to feel like shit
if i wouldn't have ever gone to that house....
there i was, innocent as a mouse
when some guy spiked my drink
i was instantly over the brink
i went to a room to get some sleep
woke up the next morning, and began to weap
for i woke up, naked and sore
my naked male friend, next to me on the floor
i got up to find my clothes torn and ripped
i went to the bathroom, trying not to stumble and trip
i looked in the mirror at my sad face
i had to get out of that horrible place
i called my friend, told her to come and get me
trying to think of an excuse for what she was to see
i wrapped a blanket around myself and went to the door
gathering my tattered clothes off of the floor
i got in the car when my friend arrived
i told her not to ask, and i started to cry
i told her not to tell anybody that she saw me in this state
my heart and my head then began to debate
but i decided not to tell anyone, to keep it all inside
not aware of what it would cost to hide
it's been a few months, i still can't forget
and every day since, i've felt regret
but there's nothing i can do to change the past
i make another cut, and i make it fast
i hate my life, i've become someone i don't wanna be
if i'd just stayed home, i could've always been me
that guy changed me in ways he does not realize
so there's nothing better for me now than to die
i make another cut, the deepest one yet
this wouldn't have happened if i'd been able to forget

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  • XHollowXEyesX
    March 27, 2007

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    what a touching poem. and also truthfull, if only we could forget. there is not much else to say.you wrote this with such talent and emoiton. i really loved it.
    thanks for entering adn goodlcuk


  • thorlorn thanatos
    March 20, 2007

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    Good message

    This is a very emotional poem. I hope it isn't written from experience. It shows just how awful this situation is.

    Good luck in the contest

    Ryan


  • xxRainbowDawnxx
    March 20, 2007
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    We are not all strong, all the time. We sometimes feel like giving up and come so close to it, it hurts (no pun intended). I know how you feel and have been tempted. Actions done to us can impact a lot on what we think of ourselves. I know this, too.
    ♥


  • Things Fall Apart
    March 19, 2007

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    Wow. I thought this was incredable. I think you just about put all three catagories together in one poem. The ryhme was really good it didnt feel pushed at all.
    Great job!
    Good luck!
    Taylor.


  • manty
    March 18, 2007
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    This is one of the best poems I have ever read. It really draws a picture, it is fuelled with emotion, and it is so well written. Thank you so much for sharing this.

    I really feel for you having been through something so awful


  • dragontuba
    March 5, 2007

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    blood seeps from within
    nobody knows the pain i'm in
    close the door, lock it tight
    no one but me in here tonight


    wow.wow.wow.amazing this is truly amazing I love the begining I can really relate to this I feel your pain in my body..I love this piece,,,brillant bravo....

    this one will get far in my contest...good luck

    Best Of Wishes
    dragontuba


  • Kiddo-17
    February 13, 2007

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    wow. i'm so sorry. i used to live in a place where alcohol and drugs were a big thing. my mom was into them and her boyfriend was a raging alcoholic...i have a poem that kind of explains it, but i came close, so horribly close..i am so sorry you went through it. i can't imagine how much worse that would be to have lived it through.


  • Quixotically Yours
    February 7, 2007

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    I wish I knew what to say. This is a very powerful poem, and I'm sorry for the bad experiences you've seen. Thanks for entering this in my contest.

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