Dear Heart....

Dear Heart...

  It's been a while since we have had a talk, and you're hurting me so much right now that I think it's about time. You've got to let him go. Sure...he's the only thing that's ever come close to making you feeling safe, this calm...but you can't do this to me anymore. I can't take it. You have to stop racing & poinding when I see him smile, or hear his voice, or when he holds me, or kisses me, or pretty much anything else that has to do with him. You've got to let him go. Sure...you live for just one smile from him, and for those tender kisses on my hands and cheek, & everytime he whispers goodnight & I fall asleep in his arms. But what you feel can never lead to anything. So why do you keep doing this to me? Why do you make me feel so sad when he walks away, or when I tell you we won't see him for a while? You've got to let him go. why do you make me think of him when I hear certain songs, when you know it drives me crazy?? We've been through a lot together you & me. Remember Matt? You did the same thing with him, though maybe not quite this bad. And what happened with him Heart? I had to pick you up in piences off the floor, because I couldn't save you from him. But I patched you up & we went on with life. Why are you going to do this to yourself again? What is it about him that is so special? Sure...he's a great kisser, he's gorgeous, and most of all he can make me smile when all I want to do is cry...but you've got to let him go. If you don't, I might just find myself picking you up, broken once more...and I just don't know if I can handle it again. Let him go Heart....just let him go.