conditionally unconditional

you stand,
    centerstage,
and the spot light is blinding.

you turn to go,
    but you remember a joke,
when no one laughs, you stand laughing at yourself.

i heard it's been really hard,
"ever since that day..."
and from what I hear,
he left the door open halfway,
(in his hurry)

you play the victim,
even though while he was in the bathroom
pleasuring himself, you were in the garage,
underneath his best friend.

you sit,
    tissues in hand,
issues laid out on the table.

we watch,
    rubbing our chins and wondering if you mean it.
if you've learned from your mistakes.

i heard it's been really hard,
"now that you're all alone"
from what you say
he left in tears, and with a bottle
(he could barely walk straight)

you play the victim,
even though while he was in the bathroom
finishing a bottle or two,
you were in the garage, lighting up another joint.