Nightime reflections

I watched from my window
As the night sailed
Oblivious to my thoughts

Sleep won’t eat me whole
Again tonight
Guess im not as tasty as I used to be

Maybe i'll have just enough flavor
The next time

I breathe on the glass
Watch it cry shamelessly

I feel no pity

And wipe the moisture
With my sleeve

I let today consume…
Tomorrow will just have to wait have its turn

My body glares
From the mirror

Wrapped in myself,
Underneath my flesh

Entraps colour

That wishes to burst out
And paint the world

It will never see light
Or radiate beauty

It is my prisoner

And if it leaks
I drink it back
Into its cell

Even skin
Finds it hard to shine
Underneath
This cage of
Modesty

I’m sorry for how I’m sculpted

Laugh if you wish

I’m not completely senseless

There are times I sob so hard my
Temples bulge...Feel like bursting
There are times
I choke and splutter
Trying to stop.
There are times
I collapse
Because all effort
To smile is misplaced

But mostly I’m upright and alright

Until the next refreshment
To show me life
Cleanses me with salt water

Then gains strength to dry these eyes

Sometimes, bursts of energy engulf me
These times are hazy
The feeling of euphoria
Is equivalent to intoxication

I drink till my glass is empty

But it's not readily available

Two extremes, I usually wait
To tipple, Scared of
Being set
In the grey

Right now though, I’m there legs half covered
And fingers flicking keys
Cluttered and silent

Knowing that sleep wont eat me whole tonight

And tomorrow, will only chew