I look in the mirror every day before I go to school,
I hate doing that.
I get to school and I compare myself to the other girls,
I hate doing that.
I try to cover my face just to feel better about myself,
I hate doing that.
But the problem is; I can’t help it...
I just want to be beautiful;
I want to be thin enough.
Not thinking I'm being compared to the other girls,
not having to worry about the little stuff.
So I dress in nice, new clothes,
And I style my hair in a new way,
I walk into my school feeling good,
Until the other girls walk by and ignore my "hey".
Then I'm pulled back,
Once again in my old state of mind,
Hating the way I look,
Wishing I was hidden away,
Wishing I was confined.
Sometimes I get sick of feeling alone,
And wonder if many people think these things.
I'm sure someone else must be like this, but,
All I know is the depression these thoughts bring.
I will always continue to hate the way I look
Why? Because I can't help it,
I just want to be beautiful.
Author notes
This poem is seriously personal, and I like it, and thats all that matters to me...
A contest entry
- Anything Beautiful by Dirty and Broken.
900 points, ended March 24, 2007, 13 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
Any Thoughts? :
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What is beautiful anyways, Carrie?
Is it being 90 pounds with a fake face and blond hair with large chests? No, there isnt any definition for beatiful. I dont wanna go all fortune cookie on ya, but everyone is beautiful in their own way. Like, i know it probally sounds weird coming from me of all people, cause im self concious, but you shouldnt compare yourself to mini Tamika's at the god damn school. Cause you're beatifulllll
Yeah, easier said than done, but .. its a good thing to hear <3
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mini tamikas xD nice.
and yes. YOU'RE the more self-concious one here. It actually took me writing this poem and seeing these comments to realize how beautiful i am. Before this poem, my self-esteem was horrible. -
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yes, yes i am xD haha
and yes, your beautiful carriee
gang bang !?O:
xD
rofll
kiddingggggg
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You my dear, ARE beautiful! Inside and out, or I wouldn't love you like a daughter already! You are amazing, talented and wonderful!
I know how you feel, I used to be that girl too, sitting where you are, feeling like you do.
But as I grew older, I realized, if they don't like the way I look, it doesn't matter, because I am who I am, and that is all I can be and do!
Congrats on the HM!
and love
Mom
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I was yer pic. You're beautiful. This world as made us teenage girls believe that beautiful is anyhting under 110 pounds and blonde hair. WRONG! forget the worlds standards! you're beautiful and you've gotta believe it. Look at those girls and think "wow...you're beautiful...but so am i!" heart wrenching write darlin.
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Good lord! A very well written poem! But hon, you are extremely beautiful, both on the inside and outside!.I don't know you. But just reading all of your poetry, you can tell how beautiful you are on the inside, and just by looking at your picture, you are a very pretty girl indeed! And the other girls that ignore your 'hey's'. Well, they are just stuck up and full of themselves. Beautiful write!
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You look gorgeous
hello dear Carrie! Though your poem is a bit gloomy, yet your appearance is very attractive and graceful........
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thankyou so very much.. I have had many confidence issues over the years, but things are slowly starting get better.. Thankyou for your comment, and what you said, It really helps <3
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the guy who commmented before me.. well he is totally right! before i met my love, i never thought i was pretty, sometimes that even bothered me, but mostly i didnt care. I was always pale and thin,,to thin. flat. well..yeah. but then i met my love, and with him, i sort of found myself, and i have grown beautiful after that. when i look at my old pictures i just get shocked at how could i have been so pale. and i think the secret to this, is that i am beautiful in his eyes. that made me bloom and bout movies,,(previous comment)HELL thats TRUE. i hate those stereotypes, that "beautiful" is blue eyes, long hair, thin body, big ass, big boobs, big lips, small nose well bullshit!!! i have brown eyes, short hair, i am flat, and too skinny, and a big nose, and i am beautiful! TRY THINKING the same way and you will be happy and beautiful. promise. -eleno
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CARE! You ARE beautiful! Don't you DARE let anyone tell you different! Its all movie's faults to make us think we have to be as thin as a toothpick to look good. We live in a materialistic world. Its as simple as that. But you know what Care? in my eyes, you ARE beautiful. Don't ever think different.
Mucho love,
Justin
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wow
Thanks Justin, as always you've sucessfully made me smile. Its weird when i talk to you i feel pretty, and when im not talking to you, I think of you always saying that im beautiful. You've slowly boosted my confedence over a period of time, and im so glad that we have been friends this long... .. although i sometimes wish we could be more lol Thank you a thousand times more xoxoxoxox care -
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*kisses you* It looks like your wish came true. I love you.
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Strange how i just got this comment now.. But Yes my wish did come true.. and I'm thankful of that every second of every minute, and every minute of every day. I love you so much Justin. <3<3
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beautiful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and so are you..... when you get older you realize that what they think doesnt matter any more and you will have wished that yu didnt pay any attention to them ....
when yo grow up and have a family and a wife or a husband .. you realize whats really important and what didnt matter,..... and when your children tell you "mommy, your beautiful"... you know they mean it.... and they are who matter ....
you are beautiful....
more than you realize...
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THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ENTERING THIS WONDERFUL PIECE INTO MY CONTEST!!!!!!!-----
WISHING YOU MUCH LOVE----
AND GOOD LUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
XxLisaJazminexX
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Thankyou so much, I actually just finished editing 2 small parts in my poem (trying to get the flow a bit better), but anyways I really apreaciate your comment. It means alot to me. Thanks again, Carrie xoxox <3
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A really sincere and honest self-reflection that was very well written. Best of luck in my contest, and thanks for entering this excellent poem.
David
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This is a fantastic poem! I can completely relate! Every word is perfect. Well written! And good luck
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its iffy as a poem. but its the truth. so many people can relate to it i think. for the most part its pretty good. <3
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GREAT WRITE
you shouldnt compare yourself to the other people you see you are probably beautiful in your own way you shouldnt try tobe like other people.
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Thank you so much for the comment <3
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"This poem is seriously personal, and I like it, and thats all that matters to me..." girl, your poem was amazing, alot of feeling and it flowed well, not too choppy. but like what you said in you authors box "thats all tha matters to me.." you dont care if people like your poem or not, you like it so youre ok with it. now, just use that every day about how you look!!! I am an ED so ive been there, still gettin there. everything will be ight...
you're beautiful!! p.s. maybe you should listen to the song called "Mirror" by Barlow Girls, listen to the lyrics really well if you can
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Thanks.. and yes this is one of my few poems, that i like it the way it is.. no change needs to be made.. because to me its perfect ^^
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This is a feeling I think every girl can relate to, only wanting to fit in and be accepted. The thing is, beauty on the outside is only temporary because you will still grow old and get wrinkles! The beauty you carry from the inside will never fade with age. This is a wonderfully written and sincerely honest piece! Thanks for your entry!
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Thankyou so much, your comment means alot
xoxox carebear
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omg thats exactly how i feel hehe exept wanting to be thin im kinda thin ish meh and the popular girl thing but woww ur like in my head eheh thanks for the entry hun x
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Yeah seems like alot of people think this way. Thankz for the comment.
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same as i feel
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beauty is a state of mind
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This is an excellent write. You addressed what I think is the most important problem in our society. And on a personal level I know how much it hurts because I was right there in front of the mirror when I was younger and I'm still doing a lot of fighting to break these old ways.
You captured the pain and these feelings perfectly!
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great!
this poem fully encompasses how i felt in grade school and high school. understand you when you say, "i just want to be beautiful." i think most everyone would. but what not everyone would understand is how it felt to want to look beautiful in the eyes of "the popular kids." that is something that only a select few of the population would understand. well i'm here to tell you that i was one of those people. i tried everything: new makeup, hairstyle, clothes, the new fads... it was never good enough was it? -
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Nope, and i can see you definatly understand what i mean. Thanks for your comment it means alot ^_^
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The most beautiful people are those who listen only to their soul and shun the false reality that the other people create within their own narrow minds.
The people who judge quickly and use hate as a weapon find, in the course of life, that the only thing they gain is a deep seated self-loathing and an ugly reflection.
The weak project their own self disgust on those who stand alone in beautiful balance of which they will never achieve.
In you they see this beautiful balance.
Walk with your head held high, be strong of foot and mind in silence, and soon those that you long to be part of will be praying that you notice them.
Then you can have the last laugh, for You are the beauty that they so desire, but will never have x
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Well what can I say! You are not alone in this world if you can count on just one person whom you can call a friend. If you have just one person to talk to or turn to when you are feeling low then you are truly blessed. I am just a few years older than you (44!!) but I can remember feeling like that all those years ago when I was at school. Sometimes we can dwell on the darker emotions within us, but things do get better and in the longterm all our experiences in life make us who we are. So keep writing, you are a beautiful looking girl with a real talent, keep smiling and remember anyone who shuns you or ignores you isn't worthy of your friendship in the end.
Great poem. Take care, Julie x
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Thankyou so much for you comment. It means alot
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ya no i seriously tried to do the same thing...i soon found my place...preps are snobby...you are beautiful...just be yourself and people will like you for who you are...anyway great poem...keep it up...dont let anyone stop you...
peace
*kelse*
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You are really pretty, there just bitches, forget them.
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*Le gasp!!* AWESOME!! I can totally see where this comes from (though i dont have a problem with it...remember the whole boys-worship-me story? lol) I LOVE the pic too by the way. I have no doubt you drew it. I seriously dont see why some people dont believe it
you are talented ^_^ bree and fuz are trying to get the gamecube set up down here...and failing...and attacking each other. 
Oh editing thing....go back and capatilize the I's
lotsa love
~Aura~
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No complaints here.
This is very good.
I don't really think anything needs improved.
It's super relatable and emotional.
Great write overall!
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