These painful memories take me back
To a time when your love I didn't lack
So I dwell in the past for a spell
In that time where all was well
Remembering when you swore your love to me
And we knew forever was ours to be
I try to stay there as long as I can
Before reality brings me back to this broken man
I am completely destroyed now and forever
This shattered heart will heal again never
I've tried so hard to heal and change
But my recovery is out of range
I've tried to learn to live this way
But now I see I just can't stay
I swore I wouldn't, but now I will
I'm taking the easy way out, myself I'll kill
There is left to me no choice
Because I can't escape the memories of your voice
Your voice professing your eternal love
Now I'll find out if there is a god above
I'm saying goodbye to this world of hate
And welcoming death, my final fate
Author notes
Most of this is true, I can't count the number of times I almost comitted suicide. Obviously I found other ways to get over her, and now I'm engaged to be married again, and happier than I ever was before. But goddamn, I came so close to ending it all, and in some strange way, part of me still wishes I had just pulled the fucking trigger.
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- Darkness Does Fall... by Broken Machine.
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im sorry you felt tht way but im glad its better
good luck on th contest
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Perfect. I am glad that you've found happiness again with someone else. I often think about suicide... I can relate because I still want to commit suicide because I am no longer with my ex-boyfriend and we had a baby together.
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I love your poem! The flow is good and it say (to me atleast) that people tell you to forget and forgive and don't take that path, but really it will never leave your head. It will always dwell there. Nothing can stop it. Thank you for entering and good luck!
Lots of Love!!
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Sad, but good.
It's saddening to see you feeling this down, but it does inspire wonderful words. A pretty but depressing write, hope things get better for you mun. -
wow.. I can relate.. I was in that dark area for a while. But, GOd and poetry got me through. Very great write. I look foward to reading more of yours.. thanks for the comment previously
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nicely written bro, i can totally relate to most of it. i do not however condone suicide lol as you know but it was a very well written poem.
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Strong poem. Thanks for entering the contest, ad good luck!
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This is incredible. Im sorry you feel this way though, its a horrible feeling, i know. But despite that this was well written and awesome!
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Jeb, please don't leave when theres more of you to please...To hell with that thinking, there is no use sinking. Come back to us here at the AP, so we can treasure your life and all it will be.....One day at a time.... love, Julez
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babe remember you told me I wasn't allowed to do this, and now its my turn to tell you. She ain't worth your all consuming love. You have a wonderful girlfriend now, love and honour her. And on the brighter side you have the Captain who Im told isn't dead. I love you my friend and will miss you like crazy so DON"T YOU DARE DO ANYTHING OK
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Fantastic job Jeb, as usual you deliver the reader into your world of pain and angst. Taking them to your emotion and releasing it to them. That is a wonderful gift you have to do this. I see you took my advice and entered a contest with that talent of yours. Great job! I wish you luck in this contest.
Becky
PS I have a contest going on right now, come on over and check it out.
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Wow.. this is real deep.. I really like this one.. its so dark and so very good.. keep up the good work.. laters!
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Great poem! Don't Go!!!! I welcome death to if I have nothing left.
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