You wanna know my life?
You wanna hear about me?
You want me to tell you?
Do you really want to see?
I am more fortunate than some
and less fortunate than others
I was raised with three sisters
and I have three other brothers
Mom always hated on Dad
I learned this on my own
she would often just cry
and smoke her homegrown
I was the oldest son
and every year seemed worse than the next
I don't know why the hell
my parents kept on havin' sex
pumpin' out another kid
every 730 days or so
knowin' there's not enough pay
or enough room to grow
We were always pretty poor
but when your a kid you don't know this
Its when I look back through my photos
that I really begin to notice
I was just a poor ghetto kid
raised in the heights
I rarely got what I wanted
I just got into fights
I got jumped enough times
that I learned to fight back
it was either that
or just take the attack
coming' home with bloody noses
and scrapes and some bruises
it sucks being the kid
that almost always loses
I had a crush on this girl
but she never gave a fuck
and I can remember my dad
had this old fucked up truck
and I had hand me down clothes
and I wore my shoes until they hurt
I used to have so much fun
playin' out back in the dirt
I was the smart gifted kid
so I got special attention
they sent me to a smart kid school
I had great comprehension
I thought I was cool
and I had good intentions
I was top of the class
but instead of ascension
my childhood showed
and it led to detentions
a couple more fights
and I got a suspension
Then I went to Central High
in the middle of downtown
steady walkin' the halls
and rockin' a frown
man, I fuckin' hated school
I would always stay out late at night
and I skipped alot of classes
thats when I started to write
Stoned everyday
always fried and red eyed
I was a senior three times
and when I dropped out I cried
by then I was a Stoner
advocating Maryjane
every day and night
I had ganja on the brain
I got myself a bong collection
a stereo and some Cd's
and I had a little dog
that had a bunch of fleas
I grew my own weed in my closet
no one seemed to care
and my appearance began to change
as I grew out my hair
one day I came home
and the door was kicked in
it looked like someone
had just let themselves in
everything was gone
all of my personal possessions
I learned the hard way
one of life's lessons
not to trust those you trust
cuz trust can be abused
I bet whoever did it
was totally amused
I've had a sad hard life
with a few good friends
But it was never bad enough
to bring this life to an end
I met a skuzzy skanky ho
and I fell for her like what
but it was to late before I realized
cuz I impregnated that slut
and now I got a kid
hes as cute as can be
his name is Ethan
and hes already three
But things still aren't any better
and now I'm twenty four
I don't have a girlfriend
not since I left that fucking whore
and I'm broke everyday
and child support kills
and the only mail I get
is more fucking bills
I don't have a bed to sleep on
and my car got smashed all to hell
by some dumb fuck doing 70
while talking on his cell
I used to manage my own store
now I make six bucks an hour
every sweet thing in my life
always ends up turning sour
then I got caught with MaryJane
and thats not allowed when your free
so now I've got even less money
and a P O watchin' me
I spend most of my time alone
except for short little spurts
when my son or friend comes over
but when they leave it always hurts
time just keeps on tickin'
so now I'm almost twenty five
and in the game of life
I've taken' a dive
but I got this smile that I put on
so that people think I'm fine
they don't need to know my thoughts
cuz my feeling are all mine
so I just shell the fuck up
and I stand proudly behind my wall
I can't go down any further
cuz there's no further to fall
everything sucks
everything is stale
I should've know from the start
that I was destined to fail
Cuz I ain't shit
I ain't got shit
I'll never be shit
and thats how I feel
I know it sucks to think that way
but hey I'm just keepin' it real
I don't look foreword to tomorrow
it'll be just like every other day
perpin' like I'm happy
as I waste my life away
workin' a shitty job
sayin' at least I have one
oh how I long for the days
when I used to have fun
I've had to many sad moments
like when my good homie died
and I've accomplished very little
in which I can take pride
and no one really knows
what I'm dealin' with inside
so I just sit back shut up
and enjoy the fucking ride
fuck....................
A contest entry
- Who are you? by DancingRed.
300 points, ended February 6, 2007, 17 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
Please tell me what you think
Comments
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Awesome
I am adding you to my favorites
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This is really long -- you might want to consider breaking this up into shorter stanzas, but it's just a suggestion. This isn't my favourite kind of read, but it was interesting enough.
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Wow, damn good and well said. love the storyline love the rhythm... love everything bout it. Excelent job man.
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Ah. Man that was amazing. Just wow. Great rhyming, great story, such power. I can relate, when everythings great, it all starts going to the shitter. But you're an amazing writer...if that's any consolation. =] (Intense though dude)
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no i definetaly agree with the person below me your writings are an amazing accomplishment
i'm sorry life's been so shitty and i know that words of condolence from a total stranger mean pretty much nothing but this is all i have to give to you are my words.
i hope you get off probation soon that might help a little
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soory, i meant at LEAST not last!
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i love this poem! At last your poetry is a GREAT accomplishment!
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Never say that you'll never be shit, because usually the ones that survive hell young wind up becoming a lot stronger then the ones who get a taste of heaven
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Holy Fuck!
You are the most talented writer ..... i'm tellin ya manne....everyones got there shyt, most just cry about it, but you write about it....instead of workin your little $6 hour job, u should definately persue somin n writing...everyones got talent, some iz greater than others...i fucking love your work (especially since iz real) !!!! -
Hey,
I really love this one. I think we all have to live in the shits, well maybe not all, but I get where you are from, I'm one out of 7, but I grew up thinking I was an only child, my mum lied to me aboute verything, and then told me my dad hated me, and left me it was all my fault, he walked out on me. Then over the years my mother beat the shit out of me, and abused me mentally, she fucks with your head, one minuite im a fatherless whore the next im suppose to be some pastor for god. I dont get it, so one day, i had enough, she had hidden me for so long, she cut me off from my friends and i had this boy...i sort of loved him, even tho he screwed me over in the end, i lvoed him, and risked everything, even he he never will care, at least i loved hard, oh but my mother hated me sooo much for even liking a boy, she didnt even know he had my heart and my body. but then i got arrested, and it went all down hill, she beat me so hard, i could barely go to work, i had bruises all over my body, and all i did was keep lieing, its what ive done for so long, this is how its like everywhere i tell me self. so i come home one day, a long day at that, i had a short break, and i needed to change clothes for one of the 5 jobs i had...so i walk in, my mother is home, she is angry with furry, she walks into the lviing room, and starts yelling at me, then hits me, and shoves me on the couchs and starts beating me with cups, and pours soda all over me, screaming, i beg her to stop, but she doesnt, and when she does, its just like every other day, i go clean up, and put myself together and keep going. she really is mommy dearest. so i found my sister, and went to court and got an order of protection against her...but she still doesnt stop fucking with my head, its like she finds some kind of sick pleasure in making me hurt along with my sister, who we have been thru hell, and its like she is the hell. sorry about the slut.
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FUCKIN AWSOME! PLEASE TAKE SOME TIME TO READ MY 2 NEW POEMS CUZ I BEEN READIN ALL YOURS AND THEY ARE FUCKIN PERFECT! YOU INSPIRE ME HOMIE! SOMEDAY IT WOULD BE COOL TO SMOKE ONE WITH SOMEONE AS CRAZY AND COLD HEARTED AS ME!
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Wow, just fucking wow. This is really intensely awesome. Sorry to hear if this is true that this is your life.
Great write,
Keep it up.
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shit man, I dont even know what to say to this. There's probably nothing I could say that you havent heard before.
this was really well written and i cant believe you kept up with the flow throughout the whole thing. but then again, when theres something you gotta say and enough emotion behind it, writing's effortless.
I honestly love this, and even though you may think that you have a shit life, you got fuckin talent up the asss.
Im glad there's people out there feelin what I feel.
-x-
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shit man, I dont even know what to say to this. There's probably nothing I could say that you havent heard before.
this was really well written and i cant believe you kept up with the flow throughout the whole thing. but then again, when theres something you gotta say and enough emotion behind it, writing's effortless.
I honestly love this, and even though you may think that you have a shit life, you got fuckin talent up the asss.
Im glad there's people out there feelin what I feel.
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wow.... with everything that you wrote about, relived it happening to me, or one of my friends. for having a tough life, your doing better then most.
catt~
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A powerful, angst-ridden, emotion filled piece. I didn't really care for the swearing, especially where you used the same word twice within in three lines of each other. Interesting rhyme and flow. I'm afraid it's a little long for what I was looking for in the contest (I asked for less than 30). Better luck next time!
DancingRed.
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i'm feelin' that
well well... that was some COLD HARD TRUTH - to the point, no sugar coating. I can relate to SOME not all of this, for what it's worth - i'm one of 4 kids, grew up kinda poor.. i didn't notice till i got older. found out later we were on and off welfare a couple of times, lost our house and probably car after car.. who knows.. anyway hand me downs are my middle name if ya know what i mean lol.. and i've learned to accept at least that much, count my blessings and like your last 2 lines - make the best of it (or so to speak)
it helped mold who i am, modest and a hard worker. appreciate the finer things in life and YOU WILL be rewarded later at some point, when you deserve it, or have earned it. i truly believe that. stay positive, it's all a test.. nah'mean?
you're a good person (from what i know) and a good father, but like life - everything is a continuous work in progress am i right?
f*** the government and making money bulls*it.. you may never be able to keep up let alone reach the top so find a way to easy coast.. ok i've said too much.
love and blessings (happiness too)
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brilliant as always
Awesome write bongmaster.
Really showed allot emotion could heavily relate.
keep up the brilliant work tho you got mad talent dont ever doubt it. This has rendered me speechless.
you put into words what i never could. your a great writter and a great inspiration thanks for sharing this.
Much Love and Respect,
AshesNwonderland
aka: GanjaGoddess.
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OMG! This is the best poem I read in oh so long! I am almost speechless, and really right now I cant really say anything or than you are an AWESOME!!!!! WRITER!!!! keep up the GREAT work dude!!!
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dude, this is crazy fuckin deep man, i never would have guessed. it's so strange to be thinking of my oun problems, then i find somethin like this, and i realize that theres people out there who know what i know, feel what i feel. and do what i do. sit back and enjoy the fucking ride, it's funny we say that but deep inside, we find that there's very little to enjoy, it's all a front, but who fuckin cares anyways right. props to you for puttin your feelings out there. i guess we all get fucked off every now and then...peace.
the girl with the empty eyes so full of the life, she's never lived---erynn
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wow, is that true?
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this was an amzing poem for me to read.. i enjoyed every part of it, too bad the meaning isn't that positive... you perfectly wrote down a story filled with feelings and emotions.. altough i think the poem is way too long (and the contest says 30 lines or less) i wish you the best of luck in this contest and your further life...
grtz
SeRnY
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Fucking Good Read man, I really like this, I can relate... But that's just cuz we're just a couple of Juggalos keepin shit real. Keep this shit up, your writing is awesome, real raw emotions, amazing flow, and all that other good shit that goes into poems.
Much Love Homie,
~ JePeTto ~
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