The clock stops ticking
and my heartbeat slows,
every night around midnight...
this is how it goes...
I pull down the window shades
and I light just one candle,
I hold it under the blade
until it's too hot to handle.
Before the metal can cool
I press it down on my skin,
I smile to myself
and I do it again...
The steam from the burning
of the hairs on my arm,
whisper their complaints
about this self harm-
But with my insanity screaming
I can't hear one shout,
as I let the blade up
and turn it a-bout.
I slice down the lines drawn
by my blue flowing veins,
and I giggle at the bleeding
and the numbness to the pain.
The red drips in patterns
on my bed stained with tears,
the proofs of my struggles
throughout all my years.
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When the bleeding has stopped
for the time of the moment,
I lay my head down
and replay my torment.
I smile in my feelings
of hatred and guilt,
tearing down the progress
my therapists had built.
And at quarter to one
I slide back onto the floor,
I re-light the candle
and I do this some more...
Author notes
This is a slight combination of the self mutilation option and the hating counselors option.
A contest entry
- Sadistic Emotions by Never Fall in Love.
650 points, ended April 11, 2007, 76 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
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Before the metal can cool
I press it down on my skin,
I smile to myself
and I do it again...
I;m not too sure if I can relate to that particular stanza
But that was my favourite
this was a really good write
I'm guessing that its personal
Keep it up
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Thank you for taking the time to read and comment! I'm glad you could find a favorite stanza in the poem.
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The steam from the burning
of the hairs on my arm,
whisper their complaints
about this self harm-
But with my insanity screaming
I can't hear one shout,
as I let the blade up
and turn it a-bout.
I slice down the lines drawn
by my blue flowing veins,
and I giggle at the bleeding
and the numbness to the pain.
The red drips in patterns
on my bed stained with tears,
the proofs of my struggles
throughout all my years.
I love this baby! great job! KISS
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Thanks hon...lol- need some points?
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Wow!
Nice write! I think that I, and many other people may be able to relate to this. I particularly liked lines 34-37. You did a great job in conveying your feelings, and describing the horrible cycle of self harm, especially since you do not do it. Good job, keep writing.
Good luck in the contest, thank you for entering.
~Manic
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Brilliant
Just brilliant
I think you did a wonderful job with the options
I liked the part when you brought in the counselor
As much as I like this poem
I hope you arent really doing this to yourself
It isnt right, and you're gonna have to realize that you're gonna have to deal with problems in life, they'll always be thrown at you .. so go out there and show us how strong you are
hmm .. I noticed one thing
you changed therapists to counselor
I have a feeling you did that for the contest
i Think I like therapists better
keep it up
and Good Luck in the contest
NeveR ♥
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Thank you. I'm glad you like it so much, yes; I did change the therapist to be a counselor experimenting. I agree though, I liked it better as therapist.
Don't worry- I do not do this to myself. I know that there is more to look forward to in life and that I have to be healthy to enjoy it.
Thank you for your wonderful comment
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Wow that was brilliant, the rhyme and flow were perfect and I think you've pretty much captured those feelings you try to portray. I really like it, good luck in the contest Keepo writing x take care x
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I really like this poem. My favorite part is "The Steam from my burning/on the hairs of my arm/whisper their complaints/about this self harm". I just love the personification and the images it evokes however, it took me a bit at the section because I was a little tripped up bye the words. It was mainly "my burning/on the hairs of my arm" it makes sense and I am not sure what caught me but it just didn't flow as nicely as the rest for me.
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Outstanding, and Heartfelt
I love it hun. You show the pain, and the progress that gets ruined by teh task. You really show how she just wants the pain to end, wants to get over what has happened and just doesn't know how, and so she does what she does. I really like it Lace. It also shows how she just can't stop too. Love it hun, awesome!
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amazin...
this is amazing .. the rhyme is perfect and the flow is great...you are an amazing poet.. youknow that.. i lve this whole peice my favorite is.... i smile in my feelings of hatred and guilt, tearing down the progress my therapists had built... GREAT
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Thanks so much Rebel, I"m glad you like it so much! And thanks for thinking I'm a good poet
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wow... *jaw drops* *stares* that was......amazing. lol omg i loved that with a firey passion!!! really mazing write...iono maybe i just like it so much cuz i used to do that......but wow. just great write hun. really.
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Thanks hon- I'm happy you like it
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