Random Musings of a Psychopath

whore
bitch
identity confused
persona abused
why do i care
scattered
battered and broken
crimson stains
disgust the moonlight
a few too many
intoxicating whispers
delirium swirling
incessantly spiraling
plunging
into self-despair
not good enough
not pretty enough
not skinny enough
bloated carcass
worthless

come fall with me
into the abyss
where black is yellow
and muffled screams
bore deep into bleeding subconscious
glitter against
bland tiling
ill prepared
unfaithful
a lie by any other name
is still a
big
fat
lie
love not
want not
why do we deceive

placate the pity and loathing
buried deep within the soul
insanity
lunatic
i'll take some more morphine please
but it won't stop the pain

neverending story of my life
veritable roller coaster of emotions
roadblocked by stupidity
accelerated by euphoria

slam head first
brick wall
death no longer
white knuckled fear
acceptance