I hate feeling like this
It hurts me inside
The pain is wrenching through my heart
Tearing me apart
No one understands the masquerade
That I put on everyday
I parade around with a smile
But really, I've been sad for a while
Nightmares rippling through my mind
Scaring me
Haunting me
Making me feel alone
When I'm alone I break down
And cry
The reason
I don't know why
I have a double life
I live two different ways
My heart wants to stop
But my mind tells me to go on
Being this girl that I pretend to be
My personality
Shunned by the world
They laugh at me
When I'm not there
When I'm finally told the truth
I'm shocked
Horrified
Mortified
Now that I finally know
Crying releases all my pain and sadness
It makes me wish I did it more often
The feeling that no one understands
Haunts me all the time
No one will ever understand
No One....
Will ever know
Author notes
I know this is probably a horrible poem and the form is weird, but I wrote from the heart. That's all poets ever want from another poets poems.
A contest entry
- Darkness Does Fall... by Broken Machine.
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Comments
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pain is such a horrible thing and one that screws up everything and leaves you blinded..your words were very strong and powerful..you are very talented keep writitng and good luck in the contest
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omg! That is EXACTLY how I feel! That's just weird...
by the way thatnks for commenting on my poem. About a crush
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i liked it it wasnt bad.. i mean so many people feel like this including me.. i feel like i struggle with a double personality, the volleyball player vs the rebel who just wants to have fun... and im getting neither the best of both worlds.... i know youre sick of people saying hold cause i am, but give it time i guess, its the next best thing, besides high school and all those people dont last for forever. good luck, thanx for entering!
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I know how that feels. So many questions. But which decision is the right one? I've been thru shit but I've learned you got to hold your head up and take each day with a tear.Its okay to let out that's what friends are for. They can help you ease it. You have to realize something by yourself first before you do something bad. Depression is the grim reaper and you have to defeat it.
~Mandi
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Great
Great job, and good luck in the contest. And actually the form was good, and yeah I agree aswell...but I wrote from the heart. That's all poets ever want from another poets poems.
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Yes, I agree. And if anyone ever tells you that your poems are bad than they're pretty... erm weird! haha! Writing from the heart is the best way to go. And I didn't think the form was bad! It was a really good poem. Thank you for entering and good luck!
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this is pretty cool. good luck in the contest!!
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