A candle burns somewhere quietly
chasing shadows into dusty corners
Reaching out to lean as my eyes and head
grow weary of each old memory, each ancient process
each new whispered promise of something... old
Never new; Never knew
I want to clear this page and start again
as your name echoes across my skin that has only succeeded
to
look
old
Never wise; Otherwise
And I try to not listen
to not give in to the despair
The breathless des ... per ... a ... tion
Each moment presents
And yet I take it in like poisoned air
Filtered smoke?
Freely; Free me
Standing, feeling this hand of memory
wrapped around my throat
speaking
softly
in
my
ear
like a lover's
lingering kiss upon my cheek
as the hands close
Eyes close; I close
Lying among the cold wreckage
of this life
or that life
With only my tears to lead me home
as the chains and cobwebs and
ropes of disappointment
Cage me; Gauge me
For my next losing battle with sleep
with time
with you
And I just want to feel again
be rid of this numb, angry
heart
and
Just be; Can't see
Anything past my own clouds of doubt
So pervasive; so persuasive
Can't let go of wanting to stay
to do nothing until
nothing is left to do
Whisper the words to the darkness
Yell them at the day
No breath;
Just Death.
Adding your comment:
Mi, my sis.
