Believe in Me

I've opened every single vein
Just to try and bleed out all the pain
You saved me just before I drowned
But I always seem to let you down
You always catch me when I fall
But then I break and lose it all
I'd give anything to make you proud
But right now my life is upside down
I'm always falling, right after I get back on my feet
Gaining numbness, losing control; bliss is bittersweet
It's so hard to keep myself in line
I think about drinking all the time
Every time I try to make it end
I end up right where I began
I'm so ashamed of what I have become
My heart's so raw, I need to make it numb
Don't look down to me, you have no clue
Of the agony I have been through
These pills are my only escape
From haunting memories of rape
I can't make the pain go away
I break down and cry every day
I don't know how it got so wrong
I used to be so innocent and strong
I just need you to say I'll be fine
And I could sober up in no time
I need someone who really thinks I can
I just need anyone who understands  
I can get better, you will see
All I need is you to believe in me