When we met a lifetime ago,
it was our future that lay in wait.
The months spent loving each other,
instead have turned to hate.
It is that hate and disappointment,
that has shaped my heart anew.
As each lonely day rolls on by,
it has so altered my view.
The love that once nourished me,
has changed to deepest ire.
The disappointment and yearning,
has ignited yet a new fire.
Fear of losing out again,
of having my heart torn in two.
These are my driving emotions,
instead of the love I felt for you.
Clouding all my horizons,
laying waste to all my dreams.
It haunts me while I'm sleeping,
as I relive those scenes.
I'm holding onto loss,
I just can't let it go.
Each day is filled with that last day,
more pain than you'll ever know.
I try pushing them away,
to remember the love inside.
But it's lost in the maze,
dissapointment pushed it aside.
So I'm holding onto that feeling,
because it's the anger that gets me through.
Through those long lonely days,
when I remember that I lost you.
I've packed up all our memories,
sealed them away so very deep.
It's the only way I have,
it's the only way I sleep.
Trying to trick myself into believing,
that it was for the best.
That we weren't meant for each other,
makes it easier to handle the rest.
So let me keep my anger,
my disappointment and my pain.
I need something to hold onto,
need someone else to blame.
It's a cowards way I know,
to feed the fire of a flame,
I'm just stuck in the middle,
covering up my deepest shame.
Burning me alive are memories,
the scars will tell the tale.
Easier to blame another,
than except that you did fail.
I've fallen away now,
away from what I was inside.
Behind the curtain of pain and hatred,
are where the fallen hide.
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