starving hurts me [in the ways you never could]
i memorized the way it felt
&& turned it into our l.a.s.t k.i.s.s goodbye
empty, hungry && wanting more
but you know;; i still love you to the bones
they're all i've got left
&& id still hold you
if my shaky hands could just [do what i told them to]
& now that you're gone
i'll pick apart every memory
i'll count every rib & calorie
until im perfect [because i know that's what you wanted from me]
&& im chewing on ice until
my insides go numb [so i cant feel anymore]
ohh, hunger hurts,
hunger hurts
[in ways you never could]
Author notes
the dark.
In a list
A contest entry
- fragile. ♥ by love tank x.
950 points, ended January 26, 2007, 18 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - & At Least Things Aren't Worse ♥ Show Me Dirty Pretty Please |x| by xxRainbowDawnxx.
300 points, ended April 7, 2007, 29 entries
Silver trophy winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - [[Darling]] I'll miss everything that ever went wrong. by SarahEatsAirplane.
340 points, ended April 15, 2007, 24 entries
Silver trophy winner
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Comments
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i really love this poem <3
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I Feel Your Pain Love. Hell I Live Your Pain. E Hug
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"&& turned it into our l.a.s.t k.i.s.s goodbye
empty, hungry && wanting more"
Wow this was good.
It was very blunt.
I really liked it.
God, I'd never be able to starve myself though.
Hah, especially not for a guy.
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Wow
This really hit the heartstrings and tugged them. I'm not really into this whole dirty/pretty thing going on here right now but you didn't over-do it, you didn't make it so it was annoying or impossible to read, and I think the punctuation you DID use was used effectively and made the poem mean even more. A well-written poem, great job.
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perfect
i dont know if ive commented this before. but i know ive read it. many times actually. its amazing to me. every single word of it just seems so perfect in its place, the word the punctuation, everything. it seems to make so much sense, the way itmakes me feel, so reall. i guess. its just.
perfect.
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I like this one.
It's mixing love and EDs together.
Great write. :]
Good Luck and Thank you.
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Have you ever heard the songs "Paper Bag" by Fiona Apple or "Ana's Song (Open Fire)" by Silverchair?... This poem has lines from those two songs... I don't know if that was on purpose or just an odd coincidence, but that's what it reminded me of immidiatly... I don't really like dirty pretty all that much, but those are some good songs... they're about anorexia... which is what this poem is about... yeah...
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yup, you got it
i was listening to ana's song when i wrote this
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wow that is beautiful. I love it!!! speaachles.....
Great job and
Good luck in the contest
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Such a beautiful disaster... I can relate to this in many ways. Not with the anorexia thing, but with others. My ex used to try and mold me into what he wanted and at one point I'd do anything to have him back even do the things I didn't want to do just to have that comfort and have his arms around me... I felt I didn't deserve his maltreatment. Beautiful write.
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i like this, its so exactly everything. ah. you put thoughts into words really well.
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Goodness. This is intruiging!
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OMG!
I felt the same a long time...I wanted to starve so bad...this is such a great poem, heartfelt, honest, desperate and fantastic. I'm falling for someone new right now, who knows if we will ever be together. But he feeds me with cake and stuff. No guy's worth losing anything of you, not your blood, your weight anything!!! Really adorable poem
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Well done in the honrouble mention in the contest, I see you have many more to look forward to in the future, good luck, with a poem like this you WILL win something
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inspirations.
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i like it a lot.. that ice cube line was sheer gold! thanx for entering and good luck!!!
*Abused *
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ohhh, This is a great write, I love it!! But you shouldnt let anyone let you feel like this... ever, boys are just stupid, and I have learned that from my mistakes, so stand strong, and hold your heavy heart high bb... it will get better, no boy is woteh starving yourself ... stay strong
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"&& im chewing on ice until
my insides go numb [so i cant feel anymore]"
Amazing doll, love it♥
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thank you miss =]
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This is very well-written and powerful, but I'm sorry you feel this way. It's sad.
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No problem, your writing is a real inspriation to me and i think you should never ever ever ever stop! Personal poems are always the best but also the hardest for people to follow, becuase theres always alot of second meaning. Ill keep myself updated on your work for shur
<3lovess
Kat
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"&& id still hold you
if my shaky hands could just [do what i told them to]"
this was so sad.... =[
but beautiful!
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thankyooou pretty ♥
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Bah. I just reread this and it was even more amazing than the first time. Where do you get your inspiration
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awwuh, thanksosmuch for you lovely comments, cutiepie ^_^
ummm, my inspiration, i get it from everywhere. this poem is really personal to me, and i was listening to 'ana's song' while i was writing it, which was where the 'i love you to the bones' part came from... i just write from the heart,i write what i know, music & lovely writers like you & the rest of the dirtypretty ladies on allpoetry are a huge inspiration, too. =]
ilyily ♥
& thanks again =]
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flawless.flawless.flawless. In every sence, theres not one thing I would chnage about this write!
but you know;; i still love you to the bones
they're all i've got left
WOW. that was awesome, so well put.&& your ending hit home
"&& im chewing on ice until
my insides go numb [so i cant feel anymore]
ohh, hunger hurts,
hunger hurts
[in ways you never could] " -
I'm a little in awe right now over this!!!
very different, even more so ...original and well thought thru with this amazing poem of yours!!! Overall, I can't say I have read something as this, when it comes to such a disorder. Very enlightening & truthful thoughts!!! Sadness deep to be sure, but there is that beauty in truths that you have really put across to me as a reader, that makes this disease so much easier to grasp, let alone understand!!!!!
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"i'll count every rib & calorie"
In the 7th grade, I was ana. This reminded me of back then.
I love this poem a lot. I hope you don't mind if I bookmark it. Wonderful.
Keep up the killer work, take care, and keep on writing!
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w.o.w
absolutely gorgeous.
like you. ♥
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LOVE it... and know it... you know that
I used to eat ice constantly... I still do it out of habit... but now I just take it out of the bottom of the glass instead of counting it as a meal
promise me we'll never do that again
I love you
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wow. same here. when i drink anything, ill load it up with ice & then sit there & chew at it forever. it seriously fills you up right away.
i promise if you promise ♥
i lovelovelove you autumn
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I love this!
Argh, there are amazing entries to this contest! Seriously
And I must credit you in using this background in the best I've seen, usualy it annoys me
I loved the lay out
It added to the emptyness
It struck a chord
That I loved
Like I loved this poem
Well done
Good luck in the contest
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thanks dollface. =]
your comment meant a lot to me. ^_^
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I LOVE IT Darling!
I'm happy that things are going great for you. Hope they stay just as great in this continueing time.
Beautiful job!
Lovers you
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thats pretty. =] i loooove you ♥
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Love it. Very well written.
You're good. This is good.
"i'll pick apart every memory
i'll count every rib & calorie
until im perfect [because i know that's what you wanted from me]"
LikeLikeLike.
Noise&&Kisses
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thank you mucho =]
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Okay this seriously hit home for me.
"&& im chewing on ice
until my insides go numb"
I really like this. Thank you for entering and good luck! ♥
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thank you so much,babe, i was hoping you'd like it. ^_^ ♥
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This is really well written. She wants revenge, so she takes it out on the only one she has, herself.
"& now that you're gone
i'll pick apart every memory
i'll count every rib & calorie
until im perfect [because i know that's what you wanted from me]"
This is pure genious. Keep it up.
Cheers
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awwuh. you're too sweet. thanks so much for your comment ♥
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