He held me close, and told me he loved me
And it makes me sick, just remembering.
All the times that he promised me 'forever'.
My heart, beaten within an inch of its life
Bleeding and bruised, tired of fighting.
So sick of suffering for the sake of love.
So many words, and so many lies uttered.
The whisper of false nothings into my ear.
Then what happened to the words, "I love you"?
Does this mean, then, that he used me?
Pillaged this heart, plundered my soul.
And raped me at the very core.
Made me feel inadequate, worthless, and weak
Then left me alone to drown in my despair.
Another bastard stole my heart!
He took it, and raped it, for all it was worth.
But as they say, one cannot rape the willing.
Author notes
Option 2: Emotional Abuse
This is for my ex, Devin, who got back together with me just so he could use me for sex. I suppose that 'consensual rape' is the best word for it: I did it because I loved him, and he used that to manipulate my emotions.
Then again, you can't rape the willing.
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I fell for
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Wow.
Guys Suck...
For Damn Sure.
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This is a great write - now tell me how it has changed your life or the way you think
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Well... The way I see it, everything changes your life in one way or another, but this one had a particular impact, mostly because it changed the way I viewed love, and sexual relationships had more than lost their meaning. Because I was used, my mind treated it similarly to a rape, thus driving me to use people, in the same manner that I was used.
Hope that helps!
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Brilliant peice of writing. You trap your reader's curiosity with the contrast in the title and hold it throughout. This is rent with tears, regret and understanding. I love the impact in the line "Another bastard stole my heart!". Think we can all relate to that. This poem is the written process of coming to terms with what happened. Having run the gamut of emotions in this poem, it ends with a sense of peace. As they say, one cannot rape the willing.
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This is a very emotional write! very sad, but beautifully written!
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I had to cry, the best one is when it is held in your eyes and you feel it burn. you think? this was so powerful...heart wrenching...and very controversal...This was so deep. And I am so sorry that this happend to you.
love is love, and he used you... and gosh... i am so sorry...i am amazed at this...its....making me speechless. Good luck in the contest.
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The rape of ones soul is perhaps the most lethal of all. I can relate fully to this feeling, and give you my sympathy, for what it may be worth. You write with knowledge, but also with passion, and the way in which you wrote about such a hard topic has fluidity and strength. A very decent poem indeed.
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I loved every word of your poem. I can really relate to it. It fucking always ends up that guys use me and break my heart; havent found a good one yet. But I love your poems. Terrific job.
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I like this one...I have been in that situation before and it hurts. it hurts when he says "i love you" and then he turns around and breaks up with you because you wouldn't let him pull you on his fucking bed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ...srry....i know what it's like. good write! keep it up. :-) -
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this is a marvellous job!!! It was amazing! Very intense in a psycological manner- just my type of poem- u really did show how you can go to any extent for the one you love and in the end, they take advantage out of it and you're left alone with your pain...and am sorry you had to go through that
but i loved your write and the different powerful emotions involved. Wonderful job!
Love,
Neera
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ah the darker side of love, it shows its face all too often, a good poem. i wish that you have good luck in this contest you have entered. spill ink and twist me into the crazy shape of love...
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This is an excellent poem. It wasn't too depressing don't worry. You did a great job and I really like it. Stupid fucker took advantage of you. I can never tell if I'm being used unless someone tells me. I guess I'm just that clueless. Anyway. Excellent job. I loved the length and the way it flowed. Thanks for entering and good luck!
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