It's funny how even the most unconscious decision can change everything.
You think you have control but you really don't.
You say one thing and it is taken the wrong way.
You feel cold and distant as you travel the halls.
You recieve looks of barely concealed annoyance, anger, and dislike.
What have you done to deserve this treatment?
Speaking for myself, I can state quite a few things.
I don't understand,
Why can't you just pick up the pieces and go on?
Why does life have to end just because of a few mistakes?
If I had just one thing,
any one thing that I could latch on too,
any one thing that I deem important enough so I'd have a reason to pull myself out of this pathetic hole I dug myself in,
I would try my hardest to fight with any leverage I could to get out.
*depressingly sighs*
There is no one thing that I need to fight for, though.
There is nothing but an endless sea of bad habitats, yells, pain, regret, disappointment, and failure.
With no rope in sight,
What am I going to do?
How can I climb without any ledges to place my feet on?
I can't stay in the air forever.
Sometime in the near future I'm going to fall,
and when I hit rock bottom,
the only thing left will be a broken body.
*Laughs coldly*
Having now read this over, I've come to realize,
that maybe I've already hit rock bottom,
and maybe I'm just in denial.
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This was written on January 18, 2007. Please enjoy.
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nice adding the laughs and sighs
it was very interesting. it just makes everyone remember that person in their life who wont get over something you find simple and easy...
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it says thin..."If I had just one thin," should be thing there...I hope...Your not fat....so you don't need to have just one thin...
What are you going to do? You are going to let me leave another comment tomarrow because The bell is ringing, sorry -
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thin equals thing. n u have issues. but that's cool kuz i get to tickle them n poke them n...run away from them. ok, me done now. buh bye!
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Relates Completely
Hey, if we're both emo at the same time then we would be the biggest and most pathetic emo gathering in the universe. We can't do that, it wouldn't be fair.
I think that this is one of the truest things you've written, and I would like to tell you that if you keep acting this depressing I'm going to bear hug your ass until you're skinnier than you were when we first met. (i.e. Toothpick Krissy)
I don't know if you meant for it to sound this way, but is sounds almost suicide note-ish to me.
*Grabs ladder and runs like hell to go get fallen sissy out of hole*
NO!! NO BE BROKEN!!
You aren't in denial. You're one of the only people I know who can come to terms with reality. I, on the other hand, am in denial, but what the hell? I can be. Because I say so, and there's no one there to stop me.
I have to say though that this in its entirety is a very haunting piece. The last part, especially the "*laughs coldly*" part gave me chills.
I think I would have to really be braced to meet this side of you to be completely honest.
I have one small nit-pick, and I know this is going to annoy you, but I can't help it. I think in line *clicks little line number button* number eleven, you meant to say "thing" and not "thin." Of course I could be wrong.
Hey, Reba's on again.
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Thank You!
Hmmm...if we were both emo at the same time i don't think we'd ever stop being emo, kuz my emo would cause u to become even more emo n then it would just go from there. This I wrote like five minutes ago off the top of my head, so if u think that this is the truest thing i've ever written, then i am greatly complimented. if u would like for me to be a toothpick again i think it will take more than a hug, but ok. Suicide note-ish? I guess it could be taken that say. I was stating my feelings. Thank you for the ladder. I think i want to be in denial. I almost didn't add the laughing coldly part but it didn't seem complete without it. if u met my depressed side u'd cry. i make myself cry, u'd cry. that's why u never will meet it face to face. yes, thin should have been thing, i'll change it.
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