Because

I look through all these contests
with visions in my eyes
looking for things to say
thoughts running through my vains
yet i'm concerned if i can spell the damn word correctly

I highly doubt it,
and having a slight degree of O-C-D
i try to M-O-V-E onto the next line
but of course as i write
i keep on thinking in the back of my mind
I MESSED UP

Shit, why did I make the first set 5 long
and the second set 6
am i stupid?!
i guess this would be more of a rant than a poem
because by now i would have pressed the 'delete' button
erasing all these thoughts into an abyss of nothingness

So then i start over
thinking about what i should say
to impress all who read so i can feel like i succeed
AT SOMETHING
but of course, i stare at the blank canvas
watching the screen
hoping that the damn poem would write itself out.

and of course i put a period there
to make it stand out more than the rest
as if i said all that crap under one breath
semicontiously pressing the period button
to make it seem like i forgot to end the rest of my sentences
grammatically correctly.

and i do it again
WHEN WILL THIS END
I KNOW!
now

so i don't know if this answers your question,
but it sure as hell made me feel better.
so i'll leave you with this,
as i look onto other contests
hoping to be inspired enough to write something that i can say i'm proud of