realizing .... BY: A/B

i know he doesnt realize
all the pain i hold inside
and i know he doesnt realize
just what it is that makes me cry
its not the love but its the lust....and all our made up lies
yet still most people dont take the time to look into my teary eyes
and see the pain that tears up my already patched up life
and most people dont want to see
just what it is that sets me free
its love...not lust...its truth and not lies
but sadly my own flesh and my own blood wont take the time to realize why
nor will they take the time to see the reasons behind my lies
we all make mistakes and we all pay for our sins
but why do i have to pay for mine and some of his
b/c he wont take the time to reason with me
or b/c he wont take the time to set me free
maybe b/c he doesnt know how
or maybe he doesnt realize it right now
but i want our love to last
so i just let go of my dreaded past
and i let go of all the things that held me back from him
and i opened up to the new things he was bringing in
he hasnt truly let me down
but yet i havent gave him the chance to let me fall to the ground
maybe b/c i knew id fall
or maybe it wasnt that at all
maybe i just cant take another chance
or maybe i just dont know the steps to that very dance
im not exactly sure myself
why i just cant ask for his help
maybe b/c i figure he wont listen
or maybe i know he wont understand me once again
i only want him to stay
so ill hold on tighter each and everyday
i dont ever want him to leave
so maybe one day he can set me free
i dont want to live in freedom on my own
i want a companion and some friends at a loving home
i dont have to have a flawless life
all i want is a life thats truly right
but in my heart i i know its going to be me
that one day will make everything i love leave
i hope that isnt true at all
but maybe ill realize it just when someone lets me fall