turpentine

grays smeared
across the blues last night
i know
they speak, of what i cannot have

dark smeared
across the pinks yesterday
i know,
they say, some things just go bad

and now, colors tint
my fingertips
with sick, sorrow, and little things
misunderstood-

i am broken and bleeding,
i am hurt and retreating,
i need a reprieve,
from this pain that i grieve,
i am broken and bleeding,
i am hurt and retreating,
i need a reprieve,
from this pain that i grieve

change spread
it's hard-knocks on my lap
i know,
it speaks of what i have lost

strength spread
too thin, across my thoughts
i know,
its speaks of what this costs

and now, colors tint
my eyelashes
with pain, parting, and pale moments
misunderstood-

i am broken and bleeding
i am hurt and retreating
i need a reprieve
from this pain that i grieve
i am broken and bleeding
i am hurt and retreating
i need a reprieve
from this pain that i grieve

i am broken and bleeding
i am hurt and retreating
i need a reprieve
from this pain that i grieve
i am broken and bleeding
i am hurt and retreating
i need a reprieve
from this pain that i grieve

and now, i dipped
my fingers in
turpentine
and smeared across
my face,
like shadow
on my eyes

i hoped to clean away
pain and loss
misunderstood-

i am broken and bleeding
i am hurt and retreating
i need a reprieve
from this pain that i grieve
i am broken and bleeding
i am hurt and retreating
i need a reprieve
from this pain that i grieve

Author notes

The end lines of the verses are quick and emphasized where as the rest of the song is slow and the words completely broke down to their syllables. The voice is low-keyed, very low...

If I had to pick any artist to sing this it would be either 'the Pretenders', 'the Coors', or possibly Amy Lee...

RUBERIC
I think its consistent, and the flow is right in my head, but it may be hard to imagine..

The two metaphors are different colors of paint compared to emotions in my life, gray, blue, pink, dark. The other metaphor is turpentine, which is a paint thinner/cleaner.. I was working with it the night I wrote this, and I spilled some, and the day had already been awful, so I cleaned it up and sat down and cried, in a freezing cold basement. lol, it was rather funny.

The similie I used was 'like shadow on my eyes', the shadow similie has a double meaning, obviously shadow is a type of make up that I think is just a big cover up (I am a feministic anti-makeup bitch. )
the other meaning... shadow is an art term, and I used the shadow technique alot, to draw attention to something or to darken the whole image...

as for the entire meaning, i think it is pretty self-explanatory.. tyler you already know some of the things that i've been dealing with, but this week was like hell for me with even more shit.. if you want me to explain that to you, send me an IM on my other account.

i'm not so good at alliterations but...
sick, sorrow
broken and bleeding,
pain, parting, pale

okay, i will definitely understand if you take points off for that part.

Did I get everything, oh yea, this is my first attempt at writing lyrics since at least this time last year, so if you hate it, please break it to me gently...